terrified, and yet soothed
I commented in my SG journal today that I'm in love with Jason. This was extremely scary for me since his ex-girlfriend reads my journal. Now, I'm neurotic, and here's why.
1) His ex-girlfriend already knows that we have exchanged the big L word. She asked, he told her, they fought. So the one person I was worried about seeing it, already knows.
2) Ever since we got together, I've been feeling like I should keep the whole thing on the DL. Why, you ask? I don't have a clue. Jason doesn't. He says to me constantly that it isn't a secret and the one person he might want to keep it a secret from (his ex) is the person who probably knows the most (because they have boundary issues, but that's not really my problem).
3) Most people already know because those kids are a hot bed of gossip and we have kissed in public on more than one occassion.
4) Apparently there was a group of them, including Jason, who used to sit around whenever I would leave parties and talk about how obvious it was that I liked Jason and he should hang out with me more and see what happens.
5) And finally, he has put in his journal about taking care of me when I was sick and mentioned my staying the night over there.
OK. Neurotic. I get that. But luckily, one skinny, young kid happened to be on IM a few minutes ago and talked me off the ledge. He was awesome. I said I was worried that the ex was going to hate me and cause me mass destruction because I said I'm in love with her ex in my journal.
He said she may be unhappy for awhile, but she'll get over it. Good friends don't let stuff like that come between them. (Did I mention YOUNG? How adorable is that? He thinks that people don't let who they date ruin friendships! But regardless, in theory, he's solid.) And then he said, "Hey, you guys are happy. We're happy for you too." Done and done. I feel significantly off the ledge. And further, now everyone knows.
1) His ex-girlfriend already knows that we have exchanged the big L word. She asked, he told her, they fought. So the one person I was worried about seeing it, already knows.
2) Ever since we got together, I've been feeling like I should keep the whole thing on the DL. Why, you ask? I don't have a clue. Jason doesn't. He says to me constantly that it isn't a secret and the one person he might want to keep it a secret from (his ex) is the person who probably knows the most (because they have boundary issues, but that's not really my problem).
3) Most people already know because those kids are a hot bed of gossip and we have kissed in public on more than one occassion.
4) Apparently there was a group of them, including Jason, who used to sit around whenever I would leave parties and talk about how obvious it was that I liked Jason and he should hang out with me more and see what happens.
5) And finally, he has put in his journal about taking care of me when I was sick and mentioned my staying the night over there.
OK. Neurotic. I get that. But luckily, one skinny, young kid happened to be on IM a few minutes ago and talked me off the ledge. He was awesome. I said I was worried that the ex was going to hate me and cause me mass destruction because I said I'm in love with her ex in my journal.
He said she may be unhappy for awhile, but she'll get over it. Good friends don't let stuff like that come between them. (Did I mention YOUNG? How adorable is that? He thinks that people don't let who they date ruin friendships! But regardless, in theory, he's solid.) And then he said, "Hey, you guys are happy. We're happy for you too." Done and done. I feel significantly off the ledge. And further, now everyone knows.