In the end, its all woth it..
If anything can go wrong, it will and at the worst possible moment. -- this is soo me..
yesterday was j/ horrible but all day today i thought that im not goin to waste my time being unhappy.. Its my Senior yr. i have soo much to look forward to, im goin to take jaimies advice n im not goin to blame myself this time. so i decided to write sean a letter wow it took me a long time, i j/ wanted to get everythin out n tell him how i really felt bout the situation. in the end i told him that things happen for a reason n maybe we were never meant to be.. maybe i j/ supposed to open his heart up again n show him that there r nice girls out there lookin for nice guys.. right now i dunno how he changed me but soon i will, n i thanked him for that.. what can i say im a nice gurl, i cant be mad at anyone.. i was even nice to tell him that i dont want to talk to him anymore; not b/c i want too but b/c i think if he wants to make things work w/ this other gurl he needs to stop havin feelings for me which means no connected at all.. this gurl really likes him n im not goin to ruin both of their chances to be happy.. i felt it was the right thing to do.. when u like someone soo much u want them to be happy so thats what i did.. n i feel great bout it..i cant say im honestly happy bout it but in the end knowin u made 2 ppl happy is all worth it; even tho u not.. i love makin ppl happy n i hope someday ill find someone for me n that i could finally be happy.. til then, im j/ goin to force on my dream.. so anyway.. other things r slowly gettin better.. im workin more which is good but also bad.. good b/c i need the money but bad b/c its soooo borin there n theres nothin to do but stand there.. school is school, i didnt get my report card yet but ill probably be pissed bout that b/c this makin pd. i mostly slept in every class n didnt care... hmm yea the whole friends thing i really dont know.. its j/ soo hard for me 2 explain it... yea thats it..
cant wait til March.. Senior Trip, winter formal n parties.. goin to be a great time..
-- j/ wanted to say thanks to everyone that commented in my last journal entry n all the ppl that tryed to cheer me up n bein there for me.. im really luck 2 have to u guys... love u all
yesterday was j/ horrible but all day today i thought that im not goin to waste my time being unhappy.. Its my Senior yr. i have soo much to look forward to, im goin to take jaimies advice n im not goin to blame myself this time. so i decided to write sean a letter wow it took me a long time, i j/ wanted to get everythin out n tell him how i really felt bout the situation. in the end i told him that things happen for a reason n maybe we were never meant to be.. maybe i j/ supposed to open his heart up again n show him that there r nice girls out there lookin for nice guys.. right now i dunno how he changed me but soon i will, n i thanked him for that.. what can i say im a nice gurl, i cant be mad at anyone.. i was even nice to tell him that i dont want to talk to him anymore; not b/c i want too but b/c i think if he wants to make things work w/ this other gurl he needs to stop havin feelings for me which means no connected at all.. this gurl really likes him n im not goin to ruin both of their chances to be happy.. i felt it was the right thing to do.. when u like someone soo much u want them to be happy so thats what i did.. n i feel great bout it..i cant say im honestly happy bout it but in the end knowin u made 2 ppl happy is all worth it; even tho u not.. i love makin ppl happy n i hope someday ill find someone for me n that i could finally be happy.. til then, im j/ goin to force on my dream.. so anyway.. other things r slowly gettin better.. im workin more which is good but also bad.. good b/c i need the money but bad b/c its soooo borin there n theres nothin to do but stand there.. school is school, i didnt get my report card yet but ill probably be pissed bout that b/c this makin pd. i mostly slept in every class n didnt care... hmm yea the whole friends thing i really dont know.. its j/ soo hard for me 2 explain it... yea thats it..
cant wait til March.. Senior Trip, winter formal n parties.. goin to be a great time..
-- j/ wanted to say thanks to everyone that commented in my last journal entry n all the ppl that tryed to cheer me up n bein there for me.. im really luck 2 have to u guys... love u all