Dean|Sam NEW HD SPN FANVID+DRABBLE+ART "Swap our places"
Title: Swap our places.
Author:likiel
Supports: Drabble, Fanvid, fanarts.
Disclaimers: SPN ain't mine obviously. I'm just playing with them.
Rating: G
Warning/Pairing: None
Summary: Sam didn’t understand that saving the world by jumping in the pit would gladly kill his brother. And Dean never understood how Sam could think that without him, there was a world to live for.
Notes: This is the fill to the prompt "Devotion" of my
spn_30snapshots 's Table. Also available on AO3.
This is a gift for verucasalt123 who timidly asked if I could make her a Sam/Dean vid with the song "Running up that hill" by Placebo. I went with my guts and my love for the boys while doing this, I didn't hold back, not on the video, not on the review of it, and not on the drabble. I really, really hope I reached your expectations, honey. Thanks for all the encouragements and commentaries on my vids. *Hug and kiss*
The Drabble: Coda 5x10.
Dean was sitting behind Bobby’s desk. His face was a mask of stone; his green eyes seemed frozen. Sam was sitting on the chair in front of him, eyeing him with a dark expression. Ellen, Jo, Bobby and Castiel were in the kitchen. Tomorrow, they were going to kill the devil or die trying.
“We can’t trust Crowley. Maybe it’s a trap, maybe what we’re doing is exactly what Lucifer wants” Sam said with a quiet voice.
“I’m aware”, Dean replied evenly.
“And?”
“And we’re doing it anyway. Let the bastard kill me once? Shame on me. Let the bastard kill me twice? Shame on me.”
Dean met Sam’s cold stare with one of his own.
“This is our one shot Sammy, we gotta take it no matter what.”
Something in his brother’s tone made Sam shivered, and during a second he was able to see the other Dean, the man he hoped never encounter. The leader of an apocalyptic world. The General Winchester.
Sometimes Sam wondered if Dean was able to see the other Sam as well. The one consumed by Lucifer.
“I still think you better stay here.” Dean said after a minute of silence.
“Yeah, I got it the forty-seven time you said it, Dean. “
“Don’t be smart-ass, Sam” Dean warned, setting his glass on the desk.
“I’m not! Don’t you get it? What do you think is gonna happen if you go without me? Someone’s cutting you, I'm bleeding! You have to let me watch you back.”
“I don’t have any problem with you watching my back, Sam! It’s your choices concerning your personal safety that screw me over!”
They glared at each other, so many words left unsaid, I love you, I hate you, don’t go, you’re hurting me.
“ I already told you, You’ll never punish me as much as I punishing myself.” Sam finally said with too much vigor for Dean to bare it.
The older man drifted his eyes from his brother to his glass of whiskey.
He thought of Sam at six, falling silent everytime their Dad came home.
He thought of Sam at seven, afraid of swimming without Dean by his side.
He thought of Sam at fifteen, eyes burning with rage, packing his shit because Dad find a new hunt at the other side of the country and a school play wasn’t gonna save people.
He thought of Sam at twenty three, telling him like a threat that there was nothing he wouldn’t do for him.
“If you had the choice between saving me or saving the rest of the world, Sam… what would you do?”
Sam started to open his mouth to give an obvious answer but his voice had disappeared. His eyes widened when he realized he needed to think before giving his response.
The smile Dean gave him was far too cynical. And far too bitter. Sam hadn’t changed one bit, had he?
“That’s what I thought.”
The older man made his move to stand up but Sam’s voice stopped him.
“What are you the most afraid of Dean? Losing the world to the devil, or losing me?”
Their eyes met and held for a moment. Dean was the first to look away.
“That’s what I thought.” Sam murmured, repeating his brother’s words with no malice or victory. Only so much tiredness and maybe a little shame.
They sat in silence. Tomorrow, they were going to kill the devil or die trying.
First of all, This vid is a gift to verucasalt123 who requested a Sam/Dean vid with this particular song.
It was a little hard to make because “Running up that hill” is a song that got some deep and emotional meaning. And the highest angst we had on SPN been during Season five, my favorite but also the one I watch the less.
The first part of the vid is Dean’s POV. “This is our one shot Sammy, we gotta take it no matter what”
We’re watching Dean sacrificed everything to save the world when the only thing he want to do is give everything to save Sam. We’re watching him suffered because of Sam’s actions, but somehow matching them in his own way, because they are both humans and at that time, during season four, they were both getting darker.
Finally we realized that the only reason, Dean is sinking is the weight of Sam’s sufferance. Making a deal with god, or a demon isn’t going to help them run up the hill. But Dean would gladly swap their places.
The second part is Sam’s POV. “You’ll never punish me as much as I punishing myself.” This quote is from 5x05. Strangely it’s this sentence that caught my attention during the whole dialogue. And it’s here to illustrate how (During Season three and four, since Dean’s deal) Sam was willing, not only to sacrificed but to destroy every damn thing that stand between him and saving Dean, then getting revenge for his death.
We’re watching him losing himself with Ruby, with the demon’s blood, with his powers. We’re watching him losing control, getting angry and fighting his brother.
But we’re also watching him doing all the wrong things for one good reason, his brother. We’re watching him loving Dean and suffering for him, for his time in hell.
Here lies the difference though: where Dean is drowning under all the harshness of their life, Sam is bursting into angry flames. But the feeling is here, Sam would also (when he’s not high on demon’s blood) swap their places.
The final quote is Bobby’s from 5x21: “What exactly are you afraid of? Losing? Or losing your brother?” The fact that Bobby asked that to Dean is as much important as the quote itself. It’s at this moment that we realized what he took from Dean to let Sam jump in the cage. It wouldn’t feel deader if they had lost the war against the angels.
After making this vid, I think that for Sam the answer would be losing because it meant losing his brother anyway. After everything he went through, detox and all, Sam jumped in the cage for Dean, because saving the world equaled saving Dean. This is where they are so different and yet so alike. Sam didn’t understand that saving the world by jumping in the pit would gladly kill his brother. And Dean never understood how Sam could think that without him, there was a world to live for.
N/A: You can find the whole package here, on AO3, and another HD of the video on Vimeo.
Please, don't hesitate to feedback! Much love everyone.
Author:likiel
Supports: Drabble, Fanvid, fanarts.
Disclaimers: SPN ain't mine obviously. I'm just playing with them.
Rating: G
Warning/Pairing: None
Summary: Sam didn’t understand that saving the world by jumping in the pit would gladly kill his brother. And Dean never understood how Sam could think that without him, there was a world to live for.
Notes: This is the fill to the prompt "Devotion" of my
spn_30snapshots 's Table. Also available on AO3.
This is a gift for verucasalt123 who timidly asked if I could make her a Sam/Dean vid with the song "Running up that hill" by Placebo. I went with my guts and my love for the boys while doing this, I didn't hold back, not on the video, not on the review of it, and not on the drabble. I really, really hope I reached your expectations, honey. Thanks for all the encouragements and commentaries on my vids. *Hug and kiss*
The Drabble: Coda 5x10.
Dean was sitting behind Bobby’s desk. His face was a mask of stone; his green eyes seemed frozen. Sam was sitting on the chair in front of him, eyeing him with a dark expression. Ellen, Jo, Bobby and Castiel were in the kitchen. Tomorrow, they were going to kill the devil or die trying.
“We can’t trust Crowley. Maybe it’s a trap, maybe what we’re doing is exactly what Lucifer wants” Sam said with a quiet voice.
“I’m aware”, Dean replied evenly.
“And?”
“And we’re doing it anyway. Let the bastard kill me once? Shame on me. Let the bastard kill me twice? Shame on me.”
Dean met Sam’s cold stare with one of his own.
“This is our one shot Sammy, we gotta take it no matter what.”
Something in his brother’s tone made Sam shivered, and during a second he was able to see the other Dean, the man he hoped never encounter. The leader of an apocalyptic world. The General Winchester.
Sometimes Sam wondered if Dean was able to see the other Sam as well. The one consumed by Lucifer.
“I still think you better stay here.” Dean said after a minute of silence.
“Yeah, I got it the forty-seven time you said it, Dean. “
“Don’t be smart-ass, Sam” Dean warned, setting his glass on the desk.
“I’m not! Don’t you get it? What do you think is gonna happen if you go without me? Someone’s cutting you, I'm bleeding! You have to let me watch you back.”
“I don’t have any problem with you watching my back, Sam! It’s your choices concerning your personal safety that screw me over!”
They glared at each other, so many words left unsaid, I love you, I hate you, don’t go, you’re hurting me.
“ I already told you, You’ll never punish me as much as I punishing myself.” Sam finally said with too much vigor for Dean to bare it.
The older man drifted his eyes from his brother to his glass of whiskey.
He thought of Sam at six, falling silent everytime their Dad came home.
He thought of Sam at seven, afraid of swimming without Dean by his side.
He thought of Sam at fifteen, eyes burning with rage, packing his shit because Dad find a new hunt at the other side of the country and a school play wasn’t gonna save people.
He thought of Sam at twenty three, telling him like a threat that there was nothing he wouldn’t do for him.
“If you had the choice between saving me or saving the rest of the world, Sam… what would you do?”
Sam started to open his mouth to give an obvious answer but his voice had disappeared. His eyes widened when he realized he needed to think before giving his response.
The smile Dean gave him was far too cynical. And far too bitter. Sam hadn’t changed one bit, had he?
“That’s what I thought.”
The older man made his move to stand up but Sam’s voice stopped him.
“What are you the most afraid of Dean? Losing the world to the devil, or losing me?”
Their eyes met and held for a moment. Dean was the first to look away.
“That’s what I thought.” Sam murmured, repeating his brother’s words with no malice or victory. Only so much tiredness and maybe a little shame.
They sat in silence. Tomorrow, they were going to kill the devil or die trying.
Click to viewFirst of all, This vid is a gift to verucasalt123 who requested a Sam/Dean vid with this particular song.
It was a little hard to make because “Running up that hill” is a song that got some deep and emotional meaning. And the highest angst we had on SPN been during Season five, my favorite but also the one I watch the less.
The first part of the vid is Dean’s POV. “This is our one shot Sammy, we gotta take it no matter what”
We’re watching Dean sacrificed everything to save the world when the only thing he want to do is give everything to save Sam. We’re watching him suffered because of Sam’s actions, but somehow matching them in his own way, because they are both humans and at that time, during season four, they were both getting darker.
Finally we realized that the only reason, Dean is sinking is the weight of Sam’s sufferance. Making a deal with god, or a demon isn’t going to help them run up the hill. But Dean would gladly swap their places.
The second part is Sam’s POV. “You’ll never punish me as much as I punishing myself.” This quote is from 5x05. Strangely it’s this sentence that caught my attention during the whole dialogue. And it’s here to illustrate how (During Season three and four, since Dean’s deal) Sam was willing, not only to sacrificed but to destroy every damn thing that stand between him and saving Dean, then getting revenge for his death.
We’re watching him losing himself with Ruby, with the demon’s blood, with his powers. We’re watching him losing control, getting angry and fighting his brother.
But we’re also watching him doing all the wrong things for one good reason, his brother. We’re watching him loving Dean and suffering for him, for his time in hell.
Here lies the difference though: where Dean is drowning under all the harshness of their life, Sam is bursting into angry flames. But the feeling is here, Sam would also (when he’s not high on demon’s blood) swap their places.
The final quote is Bobby’s from 5x21: “What exactly are you afraid of? Losing? Or losing your brother?” The fact that Bobby asked that to Dean is as much important as the quote itself. It’s at this moment that we realized what he took from Dean to let Sam jump in the cage. It wouldn’t feel deader if they had lost the war against the angels.
After making this vid, I think that for Sam the answer would be losing because it meant losing his brother anyway. After everything he went through, detox and all, Sam jumped in the cage for Dean, because saving the world equaled saving Dean. This is where they are so different and yet so alike. Sam didn’t understand that saving the world by jumping in the pit would gladly kill his brother. And Dean never understood how Sam could think that without him, there was a world to live for.
N/A: You can find the whole package here, on AO3, and another HD of the video on Vimeo.
Please, don't hesitate to feedback! Much love everyone.