Your reflection about courage is so huge. There is nothing more thrilling and scary than revealing self. When I was on my third (and longest) round of therapy, I had visions of a cheese grater just running across my face and shredding me. It was so real and visual and scary. Somethings I had to write on paper and leave them for her to read after I left. I think AA prepared me best for that process, given the "take a fearless and moral inventory" and then disclose to someone else the nature of our wrongs. That helped me to process the shit I did.. but going through the shit that was done to me, that was a whole different ball game.
You will get a lot back for that courage.. Good on you!
Your writing shows your intelligence. Rarely do I read someones writing and find the flow working for me. I like your writing. I may not always understand the content or even the context, but it is like listening to good music. It has a nice harmony, structure and flow. It also makes me more aware of my typos and the way I write in my journal which can be very disjointed and full of misspellings and grammatical errors and the fact I never edit myself. Sometimes I go back and read my own entries and cringe. I have to raise my bar! I would be lost without my alarm clock. My wife does not use an alarm clock, I would be insane from the anxiety!
I wish I could be better about food. Sometimes I don't want to eat out of our own garden because I know my cat is always pawing around back there and my dog pees there. But. I will happily go to a grocery store and buy crap and give it no thought whatsoever about what has touched it. It is like the further I am removed from the production of it, the happier I am. When I go fishing, I feel for the fish! Yet I will eat fish so long as it is packaged all pretty and nicely. I would like to have more integrity around food and it is inspiring to read someone else who cooks and enjoys food like I do.
Standing your ground around matters of religion at any point in life is so huge. But especially as a child. I have a great deal of respect for people who stand firmly in their beliefs.
You will get a lot back for that courage.. Good on you!
Your writing shows your intelligence. Rarely do I read someones writing and find the flow working for me. I like your writing. I may not always understand the content or even the context, but it is like listening to good music. It has a nice harmony, structure and flow. It also makes me more aware of my typos and the way I write in my journal which can be very disjointed and full of misspellings and grammatical errors and the fact I never edit myself. Sometimes I go back and read my own entries and cringe. I have to raise my bar!
I would be lost without my alarm clock. My wife does not use an alarm clock, I would be insane from the anxiety!
I wish I could be better about food. Sometimes I don't want to eat out of our own garden because I know my cat is always pawing around back there and my dog pees there. But. I will happily go to a grocery store and buy crap and give it no thought whatsoever about what has touched it. It is like the further I am removed from the production of it, the happier I am. When I go fishing, I feel for the fish! Yet I will eat fish so long as it is packaged all pretty and nicely. I would like to have more integrity around food and it is inspiring to read someone else who cooks and enjoys food like I do.
Standing your ground around matters of religion at any point in life is so huge. But especially as a child. I have a great deal of respect for people who stand firmly in their beliefs.
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