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i cant wait to be home. i want to be there right now.
but tonight was the first time that i felt that i was going to be sad leaving here. mainly bc i love one of my professors. she may be the best, at least one of them, i have ever had in all life. its hard to explain why, language barrier. and its weird bc there is a good chance that i will never return here in my life. i like it, but i believe there are other places i should be going in my life. so there is probably a good chance i will never see the family i am living with or my professors again in my life.
so i am in this semisad mood stuck somewhere in the sky between the americas and europe and listening to bright eyes songs that make me want to cry and rejoice at the same time. i dont know what you call that mood. a comfortable sort of melancholy?
but tonight was the first time that i felt that i was going to be sad leaving here. mainly bc i love one of my professors. she may be the best, at least one of them, i have ever had in all life. its hard to explain why, language barrier. and its weird bc there is a good chance that i will never return here in my life. i like it, but i believe there are other places i should be going in my life. so there is probably a good chance i will never see the family i am living with or my professors again in my life.
so i am in this semisad mood stuck somewhere in the sky between the americas and europe and listening to bright eyes songs that make me want to cry and rejoice at the same time. i dont know what you call that mood. a comfortable sort of melancholy?