Sorry if it doesn't make sense, it's just one big blob of a rant.
Let me start this off with.. I could care less about having a boyfriend. Or should I say I don't really want one at this time. No, there's nothing wrong with me. I have fun hanging out with friends and not having worry about that other person. Not having to worry about how much time I've spent with him, or need to spend with him, or how he feels about me hanging out with my guy friends. About 3/5 to 3/4 or the people that I hang out with on a regular basis or guys. When I'm on bow on the weekends who always comes to visit me with a fail Andy. If I go out after work with co-workers, it's always with Tony, some times it includes other people sometimes not. I get random calls from my friend Jason to go to the mall, movies, club, just hang out. I spend a lot of my time with guys, so when I get a boy friend he's going to have to deal with that. Right now I don't want to deal with having to find that guy. Why can't my friends just deal with that. Just because they think so&so and I would be cute together, it doesn't mean that I want that for myself. Yeah I want to meet a good guy and get married someday, just not right now. And I would like to be the one that picks him, seeing as how I'm that one that's going to be with him, not my friends. Certain friends of mine already have me off and married to some of my guy friends. One of those guy friends, I look at as my big brother. The other guy friend, he's a sweet guyand fun to hang out with, but I don't know. Maybe in the back of my head I know he's not the right one, or maybe I'm just in denail. Who knows. It's just so irritating. Everytime the subject of boyfriends come up I just get quiet cross my fingers and pray to the lord that they don't start pointing fingers at me.