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from reading friends' entries... it seems like ive missed out on quite a lot these past couple weeks.
I should be excited about coming home but for some reason it feels like everything will feel just as empty as when I left..being home won't make much of a difference.
The highlight of my day wasn't even standing in the pouring rain and mud so that my cousin could see 311 or the fireworks in fog. It had to have been this afternoon-watching an old man garden from a window. People fascinate me I couldn't help but stare for awhile.
I've burned too many bridges.
I'm sorry.
I wish I could start over and I suppose that is the main reason I am so jealous of you. That you are so mellow and never felt the urge to start conflict.
I've played with fire and I really regret it. I wish there was a way to start over.
If I could have any super power it would be to erase minds so that all of the awful things I've done to myself and others would be erased; because we all know that anything can be forgiven...but forgotton?
well that's impossible.
I should be excited about coming home but for some reason it feels like everything will feel just as empty as when I left..being home won't make much of a difference.
The highlight of my day wasn't even standing in the pouring rain and mud so that my cousin could see 311 or the fireworks in fog. It had to have been this afternoon-watching an old man garden from a window. People fascinate me I couldn't help but stare for awhile.
I've burned too many bridges.
I'm sorry.
I wish I could start over and I suppose that is the main reason I am so jealous of you. That you are so mellow and never felt the urge to start conflict.
I've played with fire and I really regret it. I wish there was a way to start over.
If I could have any super power it would be to erase minds so that all of the awful things I've done to myself and others would be erased; because we all know that anything can be forgiven...but forgotton?
well that's impossible.