"I wish I'd stayed asleep today"
Last night had it's ups and downs...and downs.
and downs. Crying is no fun, esp when you are around people who couldn't care much less. (with a couple exceptions)
I don't know what sparked such an emotional outburst. I suppose everything:
(missing alexis, missing kelly, missing the old kailey, missing my parents' exceptence, missing hearing the words "I LOVE YOU", hearing about EJ's party and being reminded of my stupidity, realization that I have no respect for myself, or the people who should matter the most, and of course, realizing that it may be too late to change)
Mess. Mess. Mess. Miss. Miss. Miss.
The word "bitch" is just so
derogatory, and I don't care what context it is used in...either way it hurts to be called one. Especically from someone you are already very sensitive towards.
The grass is always greener on the other side.
And it didn't help that someone left a bottle of alcohol in my car...or a cap in my house...or ashes all over the leather seats..
and it doesn't help to know that you're so far away... :-(
in so many ways.
and downs. Crying is no fun, esp when you are around people who couldn't care much less. (with a couple exceptions)
I don't know what sparked such an emotional outburst. I suppose everything:
(missing alexis, missing kelly, missing the old kailey, missing my parents' exceptence, missing hearing the words "I LOVE YOU", hearing about EJ's party and being reminded of my stupidity, realization that I have no respect for myself, or the people who should matter the most, and of course, realizing that it may be too late to change)
Mess. Mess. Mess. Miss. Miss. Miss.
The word "bitch" is just so
derogatory, and I don't care what context it is used in...either way it hurts to be called one. Especically from someone you are already very sensitive towards.
The grass is always greener on the other side.
And it didn't help that someone left a bottle of alcohol in my car...or a cap in my house...or ashes all over the leather seats..
and it doesn't help to know that you're so far away... :-(
in so many ways.