"and in my hour of need, i really am indeed, alone again, naturally"
I'm angry gas is $2.05 now. There's nothing I can do about it, but I'm angry none-the-less.
I'm angry that I can't seem to find stable happiness. I'm angry I have to spend saturday nights alone because of things I have no power over. Why can't I find someone who'll go out with me any time I want, and hang out with me doing whatever? I have that now, but it's second to significant others.
I'm angry that I lost touch with some people. I wish so many people hadn't changed this year, because damn, a lot of people did. It's so strange.
I'm angry that I can't get a trip planned for this summer. All I want to do is head over to Downingtown, or go to New Jersey, and everyone either is happy doing what they're doing with their family already, or doesn't seem like they want to go. It seems like everyone else is taking trips before college, why can't we? Am I going to have to, like the rest of my senior year, take this trip alone? I don't think it would bother me much, if it were to Downingtown, but going to the beach, well, hell, it would sure be nice to have some company.
I'm pretty angry that lots of things came out of the woodwork this month that I had no idea were happening. Someone had been talking behind my back, apparently people I thought trusted me don't, and apparently some people just plain don't like me. I can safely say that I've never done anything to almost all the people who dislike me.
I'm pretty angry that a friend of mine has been acting so rude towards me. He's being a jerk, and I don't understand why, because I barely see him now. Only occasionally do we even hang out, though I see him in school. I don't know why he has to be so rude. I just don't know.
Why is it I can't find someone to hang out with? Why is it I can't find someone who likes me? (you know, likes) I'm not going to be able to find a prom date. "Oh, you don't have one yet?" I hate that. "Who are you going to ask?" I hate that one, too. I have no idea who I could ask. I have no idea if anyone would even say yes if I decided to ask. Why isn't there anyone who's going to ask me? I'm going to be alone again at prom, too. Great.
All my entries are so cynical, depressive, and angry. I imagine it gets boring. I do apologize. I'm going to move the entry onto something else, now.
I got on the radio tonight. I was driving around for more than an hour, from East Freedom to the Loop to everywhere, and I turned on Wally 103.9 and realized it was request time. I requested "Suspicious Minds" by Elvis, and they played it. I got to say my name and all that, though though he left the rest out about my driving around by myself looking for something to do. He should have kept it in.
I'm very happy that a friend of mine is well again. I was so worried I wouldn't be talking to her again because of some things that went down. I am just so happy. I cried from happiness after I wrote a letter to her and she wrote back.
I bought "Maybe You Should Drive" by Barenaked Ladies tonight while shopping at the mall. It's so mellow. It was one of the CDs I listened to in my hour and a half long drive tonight. I believe in order to complete my college, I need "Rock Spectacle" by then, and there's one more. I hope I can find them all, because this area sucks for finding hard-to-find music.
I'm pretty happy about the fact that I'll be able to take the train into Downingtown from Delaware Valley College. I'll be able to get picked up, too, and get to hang out. College is going to be awesome. I'm so excited. I am so glad there's a train station on campus. It will be so much easier.
I'm angry that I can't seem to find stable happiness. I'm angry I have to spend saturday nights alone because of things I have no power over. Why can't I find someone who'll go out with me any time I want, and hang out with me doing whatever? I have that now, but it's second to significant others.
I'm angry that I lost touch with some people. I wish so many people hadn't changed this year, because damn, a lot of people did. It's so strange.
I'm angry that I can't get a trip planned for this summer. All I want to do is head over to Downingtown, or go to New Jersey, and everyone either is happy doing what they're doing with their family already, or doesn't seem like they want to go. It seems like everyone else is taking trips before college, why can't we? Am I going to have to, like the rest of my senior year, take this trip alone? I don't think it would bother me much, if it were to Downingtown, but going to the beach, well, hell, it would sure be nice to have some company.
I'm pretty angry that lots of things came out of the woodwork this month that I had no idea were happening. Someone had been talking behind my back, apparently people I thought trusted me don't, and apparently some people just plain don't like me. I can safely say that I've never done anything to almost all the people who dislike me.
I'm pretty angry that a friend of mine has been acting so rude towards me. He's being a jerk, and I don't understand why, because I barely see him now. Only occasionally do we even hang out, though I see him in school. I don't know why he has to be so rude. I just don't know.
Why is it I can't find someone to hang out with? Why is it I can't find someone who likes me? (you know, likes) I'm not going to be able to find a prom date. "Oh, you don't have one yet?" I hate that. "Who are you going to ask?" I hate that one, too. I have no idea who I could ask. I have no idea if anyone would even say yes if I decided to ask. Why isn't there anyone who's going to ask me? I'm going to be alone again at prom, too. Great.
All my entries are so cynical, depressive, and angry. I imagine it gets boring. I do apologize. I'm going to move the entry onto something else, now.
I got on the radio tonight. I was driving around for more than an hour, from East Freedom to the Loop to everywhere, and I turned on Wally 103.9 and realized it was request time. I requested "Suspicious Minds" by Elvis, and they played it. I got to say my name and all that, though though he left the rest out about my driving around by myself looking for something to do. He should have kept it in.
I'm very happy that a friend of mine is well again. I was so worried I wouldn't be talking to her again because of some things that went down. I am just so happy. I cried from happiness after I wrote a letter to her and she wrote back.
I bought "Maybe You Should Drive" by Barenaked Ladies tonight while shopping at the mall. It's so mellow. It was one of the CDs I listened to in my hour and a half long drive tonight. I believe in order to complete my college, I need "Rock Spectacle" by then, and there's one more. I hope I can find them all, because this area sucks for finding hard-to-find music.
I'm pretty happy about the fact that I'll be able to take the train into Downingtown from Delaware Valley College. I'll be able to get picked up, too, and get to hang out. College is going to be awesome. I'm so excited. I am so glad there's a train station on campus. It will be so much easier.