Emotional Breakdown is in you Forecast
this is my last week at "home." I have this whole week and weekend to pack all my shit into boxes. Then, the last week and a half will be spent down in Lakewood until the 31st, when we leave for Oklahoma.
Now it's starting to hit me. The nervousness and worried feelings. Anxious too. I am really getting nervous about meeting his parents and them not liking me. Having it all turn out like it did with Brian and his ex-wife.
I have to gut wrenching feeling in my stomach that everything is going to downfall. Which I have nothing to worry about. Mostly I think it is because I will be leaving the nest once again, but this time, 2000 miles away. I wont have my mom to run to if i want. Or my brothers to pick on, or even my friends that i hardly do see or hang out with, to hang out with.
Mostly I worry about Brian going back to his ex-wife. He waited until I left tonight to call her and wish her a Happy Mother's Day. I think that is bullshit, but I dont want to seem controlling to him if i was all up on him, telling him that it bugs me when he waits til i am gone. Not that he hasn't ever talked to her on the phone while i was in the room, but the fact of the matter, he didn't have to wait to call HER, AFTER i was gone. I dunno. Just got under my skin i guess. Mostly cause of my freaking out about the move now. It's all of sudden hitting me worse now that I am back at my mom's and not around him. Ugh... I just hope that this week goes okay for me. Might be a bit emotional considering the time of the month it is for me. errrr.... *deep breath*
The kittens are getting bigger everyday and starting to get curious too. They are soooo adorable. I have a feeling they will be too small before i can give them to anyone before leaving to OK. Kind of sucks, cause it's something we will have to deal with when we get down there. Brian hasnt even started to teach me how to drive a stick shift. Ahhhh!! Everything is starting to pile up. I guess we will see how these next few weeks go, emotionally.
Now it's starting to hit me. The nervousness and worried feelings. Anxious too. I am really getting nervous about meeting his parents and them not liking me. Having it all turn out like it did with Brian and his ex-wife.
I have to gut wrenching feeling in my stomach that everything is going to downfall. Which I have nothing to worry about. Mostly I think it is because I will be leaving the nest once again, but this time, 2000 miles away. I wont have my mom to run to if i want. Or my brothers to pick on, or even my friends that i hardly do see or hang out with, to hang out with.
Mostly I worry about Brian going back to his ex-wife. He waited until I left tonight to call her and wish her a Happy Mother's Day. I think that is bullshit, but I dont want to seem controlling to him if i was all up on him, telling him that it bugs me when he waits til i am gone. Not that he hasn't ever talked to her on the phone while i was in the room, but the fact of the matter, he didn't have to wait to call HER, AFTER i was gone. I dunno. Just got under my skin i guess. Mostly cause of my freaking out about the move now. It's all of sudden hitting me worse now that I am back at my mom's and not around him. Ugh... I just hope that this week goes okay for me. Might be a bit emotional considering the time of the month it is for me. errrr.... *deep breath*
The kittens are getting bigger everyday and starting to get curious too. They are soooo adorable. I have a feeling they will be too small before i can give them to anyone before leaving to OK. Kind of sucks, cause it's something we will have to deal with when we get down there. Brian hasnt even started to teach me how to drive a stick shift. Ahhhh!! Everything is starting to pile up. I guess we will see how these next few weeks go, emotionally.