fuck.
i'm trying to surround myself with distractions and people
but when i am alone i still have to sit here and deal with reality
and that sucks.
i HATE sitting all alone in my stupid big house.
i HATE sitting alone in my life.
i hate that i care
i hate that i pretend to not care
i hate that i'm remember how it used to act
it's all an act.
i hate sitting alone at my house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i still havn't called though so that is my only accomplishment