fuck.RANT
A conversation that began with "do you think I can get into Carolina" ended up with "well, congratulations katie, you fucked up your whole life. We still don't trust you, we have to treat you like you're in fucking 8th grade and not let you out of the house and not let you watch fucking TV during the week because, oh my god, school in the morning! You have to go and sit in those moranic classes and listen to these teachers who are fucking crazy or don't care or care entirely too much about what they're teaching," like fucking Christology class why do i need that for my life i fucking hate religion. oh and then they waste half the day going to fucking church. like we pay how much to sit in a gym for an hour and do nothing in class because the classes are so short?? we have more pointless fucking assemblies than any school i know god i hate bishopso so much
I'm so glad I brought up the Almighty UNC Chapel Hill because now my parents are saying, "oh well if you wanted to go to Carolina you could've easily been in the top 15 why didn't you just think about that when you were a freshman?"
This is the exact reason I DIDNT want to go to Carolina when I was a freshman, so i wouldn't get yelled at that i wasn't applying myself enough for four fucking years. Now I'm here trying to actually get into a better college and they're like "well you just fucked up. good one katie! you should've taken harder classes, you shouldve studied more, you should have not gotten depressed and suicidal and alchohalic. why didnt you just think of that when you were messed up just slap yourself on the head and be like HELLO gota think about my goddamn future" i didn't even want a future jesus christ
And THEN. here is the best part: we're just going to have to wait to see if you have good enough grades at the end of first quarter. Have I gotten good grades all along? yes. its not like i was failing. through it all i've gotten good grades. ok not like top ten grades, but good enough...so what the fuck how is grades a good standard? ok i had good grades while i was drinking every day, ohyeah good grades tells everything about you. what the fuck
Bottom Line: applying to fucking Carolina is a waste of time and money, for me, because I am a fuck up who actually deserves to go to community college and would never get into that school anyway
hey thats okay i'll probably fuck everything up in college too, which is what my father has predicted for me, and i'll just end up working and having to pay my own way though college because hes not gonna pay for me to screw up.
i'm fucked the system is fucked applying to college is fucked parents are fucked life is fucked
oh and i'm further fucked because apparently what i want to do with my life is the stupidest life choice ever and its going nowhere waste of time...whatever
i hate school
im going to get goddamn straight A's so they can take them and shove them up their asses but i still won't get into college so what is the point? WHAT IS THE POINT.
I'm so glad I brought up the Almighty UNC Chapel Hill because now my parents are saying, "oh well if you wanted to go to Carolina you could've easily been in the top 15 why didn't you just think about that when you were a freshman?"
This is the exact reason I DIDNT want to go to Carolina when I was a freshman, so i wouldn't get yelled at that i wasn't applying myself enough for four fucking years. Now I'm here trying to actually get into a better college and they're like "well you just fucked up. good one katie! you should've taken harder classes, you shouldve studied more, you should have not gotten depressed and suicidal and alchohalic. why didnt you just think of that when you were messed up just slap yourself on the head and be like HELLO gota think about my goddamn future" i didn't even want a future jesus christ
And THEN. here is the best part: we're just going to have to wait to see if you have good enough grades at the end of first quarter. Have I gotten good grades all along? yes. its not like i was failing. through it all i've gotten good grades. ok not like top ten grades, but good enough...so what the fuck how is grades a good standard? ok i had good grades while i was drinking every day, ohyeah good grades tells everything about you. what the fuck
Bottom Line: applying to fucking Carolina is a waste of time and money, for me, because I am a fuck up who actually deserves to go to community college and would never get into that school anyway
hey thats okay i'll probably fuck everything up in college too, which is what my father has predicted for me, and i'll just end up working and having to pay my own way though college because hes not gonna pay for me to screw up.
i'm fucked the system is fucked applying to college is fucked parents are fucked life is fucked
oh and i'm further fucked because apparently what i want to do with my life is the stupidest life choice ever and its going nowhere waste of time...whatever
i hate school
im going to get goddamn straight A's so they can take them and shove them up their asses but i still won't get into college so what is the point? WHAT IS THE POINT.