How am I gonna do this.
One thing is for sure...
NO DAYCARE.
I cannot afford it and I don't feel comfortable with my newborn in the care of strangers.
How are we gonna pay for all of this?
My job probably won't keep me part time...which I understand it is a VERY busy doctor's office and they can't really give up a full time position. But now I have to find another part time job after maternity leave is over. Will I ever get an opportunity like this job again? Probably not...
F-ing figures...I find a great job with great people...and I get pregnant. I really want this child...so it isn't that difficult to give up my job...it just still REALLY sucks that I have too.
So now the question lurking on my mind just about 24/7...is how are we going to do this. We have bills and cars to pay for...now a child and medical bills to have said child.
Ugh.
Don't get me wrong...I really want this child...I am happy to have him....but I can't help but wonder am I going to screw him up by not being able to offer him more in life with the limited income available to Mike and I.
I have already figured out that Aldi's, goodwill, coupons, no eating out, and cutting corners are going to have to be the way of life....which is how I grew up and we turned out ok.
AAAAAAAAHH!
I am not even worried about giving birth...for now at least.
One freak out at a time thank you.
I need to do laundry.
NO DAYCARE.
I cannot afford it and I don't feel comfortable with my newborn in the care of strangers.
How are we gonna pay for all of this?
My job probably won't keep me part time...which I understand it is a VERY busy doctor's office and they can't really give up a full time position. But now I have to find another part time job after maternity leave is over. Will I ever get an opportunity like this job again? Probably not...
F-ing figures...I find a great job with great people...and I get pregnant. I really want this child...so it isn't that difficult to give up my job...it just still REALLY sucks that I have too.
So now the question lurking on my mind just about 24/7...is how are we going to do this. We have bills and cars to pay for...now a child and medical bills to have said child.
Ugh.
Don't get me wrong...I really want this child...I am happy to have him....but I can't help but wonder am I going to screw him up by not being able to offer him more in life with the limited income available to Mike and I.
I have already figured out that Aldi's, goodwill, coupons, no eating out, and cutting corners are going to have to be the way of life....which is how I grew up and we turned out ok.
AAAAAAAAHH!
I am not even worried about giving birth...for now at least.
One freak out at a time thank you.
I need to do laundry.