Pumpkin Mush
My cranial material is now officially the approximate consistency of pumpkin mush. Finals/papers/assignments are starting to take their toll on me. I'm not exactly stressed, just tired. Tired of my couch in Benson, tired of thinking, tired of KLOVE, tired of studying, tired of writing, just tired. The people in my life are also not helping at the moment. Not that any of them are being particularly obnoxious or anything, in fact some of them are going out of their way to help, but the end result is even more confusion and distraction. Every time that I think I've finally got a handle on what God is doing in my life he seems to reverse course, and every time I think I've got people figured out they reverse course too. I'm tired of all of that too. I spend so much time, energy, and mental capacity trying to figure out whats going on in my life and in my relationships, which can be either a good thing or a bad thing. At the moment it is a very bad thing, because not only is it making me increasingly depressed, but it also takes my limited remaining mental abilities away from the work that really needs to get done. Who knows, maybe things will get better when I go home in a couple of days and can truly relax, but I'm not really counting on it.
Current Lyrics: American Dream by Casting Crowns
'Cause he works all day and lies awake at night
He tells them things will get better
It'll just take a little more time
And he works and he builds with his own two hands
And he pours all he has in a castle made with sand
But the wind and the rain are comin' crashing in
Time will tell just how long his kingdom stands
His kingdom stands
Current Lyrics: American Dream by Casting Crowns
'Cause he works all day and lies awake at night
He tells them things will get better
It'll just take a little more time
And he works and he builds with his own two hands
And he pours all he has in a castle made with sand
But the wind and the rain are comin' crashing in
Time will tell just how long his kingdom stands
His kingdom stands