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I'm kind of starting to panic about my inability to write Petrellicest. :(
The thing is, I'm sure that just by saying that -- and thinking it all the time -- I'm like, reinforcing the idea, which can't be good. It's probably just that I've built it up so much and put a lot of pressure on myself...I love the ship so much that I want whatever I write to be perfect, so it's like I'm intimidating myself. Or something.
I have been trying, pretty regularly for the past few weeks, but every time I start I just end up not liking whatever I've written, and scrapping it, and then getting worried that I'll never be able to write anything.
For one thing I think I need a more specific idea, because my ideas are allll over the place.
And then I need to relax and take some time and just try stuff out until it works, instead of freaking out if I write something I'm not happy with. I don't think I've ever had this problem before. Well, I have, but only with specific fics, not a pairing in general.
Also, I think it's interesting that Heroes is the first fandom I've ever even considered reading genfic for. I've read quite a bit and really enjoyed it, and I think that's pretty cool, because most of the time the idea of genfic bores me. But Heroes has created such an interesting, you know, universe, that fic doesn't need to be pairing-oriented for it to be good. Or for me to want to read it, anyway, apparently, haha.
My other news (lolol was that stuff really 'news'??) is that I've started learning Italian! I was saying before how I wanted something to do with all my free time now that I've left school, and I've always been really interested in languages. I learnt German (very badly, because the teaching was crap) and French (for about five months) at school. It was seeing eryslash's, kimmy_dreamer's and fiorediloto's occasional Italian posts that got me interested, I think, just because the language looks so pretty. :)
So I've bought some books and CDs and stuff, and my Dad's apartment now looks like a high school Italian classroom, seriously, everything is labelled in Italian with the pronunciation written underneath. XD I'm still really just beginning. My sister's been learning Spanish for a few years and she started that by teaching herself, so she's been really helpful. :)
Aaaanyway. Back to trying desperately to write some Petrellicest. *sigh*
The thing is, I'm sure that just by saying that -- and thinking it all the time -- I'm like, reinforcing the idea, which can't be good. It's probably just that I've built it up so much and put a lot of pressure on myself...I love the ship so much that I want whatever I write to be perfect, so it's like I'm intimidating myself. Or something.
I have been trying, pretty regularly for the past few weeks, but every time I start I just end up not liking whatever I've written, and scrapping it, and then getting worried that I'll never be able to write anything.
For one thing I think I need a more specific idea, because my ideas are allll over the place.
And then I need to relax and take some time and just try stuff out until it works, instead of freaking out if I write something I'm not happy with. I don't think I've ever had this problem before. Well, I have, but only with specific fics, not a pairing in general.
Also, I think it's interesting that Heroes is the first fandom I've ever even considered reading genfic for. I've read quite a bit and really enjoyed it, and I think that's pretty cool, because most of the time the idea of genfic bores me. But Heroes has created such an interesting, you know, universe, that fic doesn't need to be pairing-oriented for it to be good. Or for me to want to read it, anyway, apparently, haha.
My other news (lolol was that stuff really 'news'??) is that I've started learning Italian! I was saying before how I wanted something to do with all my free time now that I've left school, and I've always been really interested in languages. I learnt German (very badly, because the teaching was crap) and French (for about five months) at school. It was seeing eryslash's, kimmy_dreamer's and fiorediloto's occasional Italian posts that got me interested, I think, just because the language looks so pretty. :)
So I've bought some books and CDs and stuff, and my Dad's apartment now looks like a high school Italian classroom, seriously, everything is labelled in Italian with the pronunciation written underneath. XD I'm still really just beginning. My sister's been learning Spanish for a few years and she started that by teaching herself, so she's been really helpful. :)
Aaaanyway. Back to trying desperately to write some Petrellicest. *sigh*