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Requested late by fakebody, and they kind of turned out more like mini-fics than personal canon, I hope no one minds. They're also a bit dirtier than they were originally going to be, fakebody, just for you bb. ♥
DWAYNE HOOVER
1. Dwayne has a lot of secrets. He thinks that probably most teenage boys do, but he wouldn't really know for sure, having a general hatred for pretty much everybody and therefore not having any friends his own age. Some of his secrets are pretty tame, like the fact that he writes poetry. It's mostly just embarrassing, that's all, and he'll never show it to anyone, partly because it's so personal and partly because he just kind of thinks it sucks. Some of his secrets are a little more shocking, like the fact that sometimes he steals his uncle's gay porn magazines to jerk off to. He doesn't really know for sure if he's gay -- and maybe it doesn't really matter anyway -- all he knows is that those magazines really fucking turn him on, and he likes the little burning guilty feeling he gets from doing it because he knows his uncle gets off on those pictures too.
2. Dwayne thinks he probably first started thinking about Uncle Frank that way at some point during the roadtrip to California. He can't pinpoint the exact moment though. He'd just been staring at him a lot, staring at the back of his neck and his big strong hands and his wide chest, and also at his lips quite a bit. And it didn't really come as a surprise when he realised it all. It kind of just made him go oh. And then, okay. And sure, it was kind of annoying, because when you've got a crush on your uncle you get lumbered with the whole hassle of having to feel like a guilty pervert the whole time and wonder what the hell is wrong with you, and of course you don't exactly expect it to go anywhere. But Dwayne's always felt that there was something kind of wrong with him anyway, so it's nothing all that new if he's honest. And as for the idea of it not going anywhere...well, Dwayne's always been pretty fucking determined, too, and when he sets his mind to something, he usually succeeds.
3. One of the things he finds the most fun about the whole affair is the way Frank reacts to it. Which is probably a little sadistic and cruel of him, because he knows Frank's really struggling and is filled with inner turmoil and all of that, but he can't help it, it can really be pretty amusing. And it's not like he tortures him or anything -- well, except for the couple of occasions when he managed to start a game of footsie underneath the dinner table, family oblivious even with Frank going pink and choking on his fries. It's just that Dwayne finds it fun to watch Frank struggle with the feelings he has for him. He knows when Frank's trying not to kiss him, trying to stop himself, telling him that they shouldn't in what he probably thinks is a firm, strong voice. He just loves that for some reason. Probably just because Frank always gives in in the end, and Dwayne likes the idea that he's irresistible.
FRANK GINSBERG
1. He kind of has a thing for younger men. Whenever he's admitted that to anyone (which has been...twice, in his life) he's always followed it up with "But it's not as bad as it sounds." And that part is a lie, because he's pretty sure it is. It's okay to fall for guys who are younger than you. He knows that. It's kind of less okay to fall for students of yours, but you know, not something he'd end up in jail for, so that was all right. (Except that it all ended in a suicide attempt, but that was less to do with age differences and more to do with rejection and depression and an overall hatred of himself.) What he's pretty sure is really, really not okay is falling for your teenage nephew. That was the moment when he realised this whole younger-men thing had gotten a little out of hand. But it wasn't his fault that Dwayne kept kicking the sheets off his bed in the summer and that Frank wasn't really sleeping all that well around then, and that Dwayne was only wearing a pair of boxers and his skin was all smooth and pale and Frank couldn't stop staring at his sweat-damp chest and his little bony ankles.
2. It really was his fault for acting on it, though. That he has no excuse for. But it's kind of just something about his personality, unfortunately. He's never been good with willpower. Or with curiosity. Or with strength, of any kind. And he always blames himself for everything (especially this, even though Dwayne's always the initiator) and he knows it sounds self-loathing and there's got to be deeper reasons for the whole thing. Any psychiatrist would have a field day with him, he knows, if they ever got over their shock and disgust. Psychiatrists are another thing he's not good with. And he's had his fair share of them. He went to a few before the suicide attempt, and he could never explain what he meant or what he was thinking. It only got worse after they started being forced on him. He had appointments twice a week when he got out of hospital. And pretty soon it started getting really difficult, because he'd started doing things he shouldn't be doing with his nephew, and if there's one thing Frank is really, really bad at, it's lying. He stopped going, two weeks before he was really 'allowed' to, because he didn't trust himself not to spill everything in a moment of particular weakness.
3. Dwayne is really hard to argue with. Well, he's easy to argue with, but it's almost impossible for Frank to win an argument against him. Especially when it comes to sex. Dwayne is insatiable, and Frank is pretty sure it's not just because he's a teenage boy (Frank thought he was bad when he was sixteen, but Dwayne gives a whole new meaning to the simple word 'horny'). And it'd be tricky anyway, because Frank's not as young as he used to be, and he gets tired and for him, one time is enough to last him a whole month. But one time lasts Dwayne about an hour and a half, and then he's raring to go again. And what makes the whole thing worse is the fact that they only have the house to themselves about once a week, if they're lucky, and the rest of the time they've got to make do in the dead of the night. It's easier when Frank can finally move out, and gets a flat of his own. But then Dwayne has completely new demands, like, for instance, that he wants Frank to fuck him. This is an argument that goes on for two full years. Frank doesn't give in until Dwayne is eighteen, which he thinks was maybe his subconcious plan all along. But it doesn't matter in the end, because it's really fucking worth it.
DWAYNE HOOVER
1. Dwayne has a lot of secrets. He thinks that probably most teenage boys do, but he wouldn't really know for sure, having a general hatred for pretty much everybody and therefore not having any friends his own age. Some of his secrets are pretty tame, like the fact that he writes poetry. It's mostly just embarrassing, that's all, and he'll never show it to anyone, partly because it's so personal and partly because he just kind of thinks it sucks. Some of his secrets are a little more shocking, like the fact that sometimes he steals his uncle's gay porn magazines to jerk off to. He doesn't really know for sure if he's gay -- and maybe it doesn't really matter anyway -- all he knows is that those magazines really fucking turn him on, and he likes the little burning guilty feeling he gets from doing it because he knows his uncle gets off on those pictures too.
2. Dwayne thinks he probably first started thinking about Uncle Frank that way at some point during the roadtrip to California. He can't pinpoint the exact moment though. He'd just been staring at him a lot, staring at the back of his neck and his big strong hands and his wide chest, and also at his lips quite a bit. And it didn't really come as a surprise when he realised it all. It kind of just made him go oh. And then, okay. And sure, it was kind of annoying, because when you've got a crush on your uncle you get lumbered with the whole hassle of having to feel like a guilty pervert the whole time and wonder what the hell is wrong with you, and of course you don't exactly expect it to go anywhere. But Dwayne's always felt that there was something kind of wrong with him anyway, so it's nothing all that new if he's honest. And as for the idea of it not going anywhere...well, Dwayne's always been pretty fucking determined, too, and when he sets his mind to something, he usually succeeds.
3. One of the things he finds the most fun about the whole affair is the way Frank reacts to it. Which is probably a little sadistic and cruel of him, because he knows Frank's really struggling and is filled with inner turmoil and all of that, but he can't help it, it can really be pretty amusing. And it's not like he tortures him or anything -- well, except for the couple of occasions when he managed to start a game of footsie underneath the dinner table, family oblivious even with Frank going pink and choking on his fries. It's just that Dwayne finds it fun to watch Frank struggle with the feelings he has for him. He knows when Frank's trying not to kiss him, trying to stop himself, telling him that they shouldn't in what he probably thinks is a firm, strong voice. He just loves that for some reason. Probably just because Frank always gives in in the end, and Dwayne likes the idea that he's irresistible.
FRANK GINSBERG
1. He kind of has a thing for younger men. Whenever he's admitted that to anyone (which has been...twice, in his life) he's always followed it up with "But it's not as bad as it sounds." And that part is a lie, because he's pretty sure it is. It's okay to fall for guys who are younger than you. He knows that. It's kind of less okay to fall for students of yours, but you know, not something he'd end up in jail for, so that was all right. (Except that it all ended in a suicide attempt, but that was less to do with age differences and more to do with rejection and depression and an overall hatred of himself.) What he's pretty sure is really, really not okay is falling for your teenage nephew. That was the moment when he realised this whole younger-men thing had gotten a little out of hand. But it wasn't his fault that Dwayne kept kicking the sheets off his bed in the summer and that Frank wasn't really sleeping all that well around then, and that Dwayne was only wearing a pair of boxers and his skin was all smooth and pale and Frank couldn't stop staring at his sweat-damp chest and his little bony ankles.
2. It really was his fault for acting on it, though. That he has no excuse for. But it's kind of just something about his personality, unfortunately. He's never been good with willpower. Or with curiosity. Or with strength, of any kind. And he always blames himself for everything (especially this, even though Dwayne's always the initiator) and he knows it sounds self-loathing and there's got to be deeper reasons for the whole thing. Any psychiatrist would have a field day with him, he knows, if they ever got over their shock and disgust. Psychiatrists are another thing he's not good with. And he's had his fair share of them. He went to a few before the suicide attempt, and he could never explain what he meant or what he was thinking. It only got worse after they started being forced on him. He had appointments twice a week when he got out of hospital. And pretty soon it started getting really difficult, because he'd started doing things he shouldn't be doing with his nephew, and if there's one thing Frank is really, really bad at, it's lying. He stopped going, two weeks before he was really 'allowed' to, because he didn't trust himself not to spill everything in a moment of particular weakness.
3. Dwayne is really hard to argue with. Well, he's easy to argue with, but it's almost impossible for Frank to win an argument against him. Especially when it comes to sex. Dwayne is insatiable, and Frank is pretty sure it's not just because he's a teenage boy (Frank thought he was bad when he was sixteen, but Dwayne gives a whole new meaning to the simple word 'horny'). And it'd be tricky anyway, because Frank's not as young as he used to be, and he gets tired and for him, one time is enough to last him a whole month. But one time lasts Dwayne about an hour and a half, and then he's raring to go again. And what makes the whole thing worse is the fact that they only have the house to themselves about once a week, if they're lucky, and the rest of the time they've got to make do in the dead of the night. It's easier when Frank can finally move out, and gets a flat of his own. But then Dwayne has completely new demands, like, for instance, that he wants Frank to fuck him. This is an argument that goes on for two full years. Frank doesn't give in until Dwayne is eighteen, which he thinks was maybe his subconcious plan all along. But it doesn't matter in the end, because it's really fucking worth it.