RP with nothingunderit | Aftermath

[likebraveheart]

[rockmeall_night to join eventually]She could be given something for the nausea. Hell, she could be given something for the dizziness. But they couldn't give her something to turn back the clock a month to stop herself making these stupid mistakes leaving her in a surreal aftermath right now that she didn't know how to handle. As soon as Braden had backed out of

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[likebraveheart]

Kenzie was engulfed by an odd sensation as soon as Braden closed the door behind him when he left. For some reason she just had this terrible sense and fear that she wasn't going to see him again. She had him getting on the next plane to London just to get the fuck away from her. He was being so kind and attempting to breach the gap, and she shot him down in flames. She hadn't meant to, but wasn't him being around her while she was knocked up with some faceless bastard's kid when he couldn't have any of his own. She knew he had taken the news about as well as he would have taken a belt to the head with a steel pole. He wanted her to ask more of him? Is that what he had been hinting at? And what did she do? Turned around and pretty much told him she didn't need him to try and protect him

[rockmeall_night]

Jules had at least managed to put away the cold items from the groceries, and just left the rest. She needed to check on Kenzie, especially considering the fact that Braden kept hinting that whatever it was was something her friend needed to tell her. Not him. It had been bad enough to rattle Braden Evans, so Jules knew it was serious.

She crept quietly up the hall to Kenzie's room, and nudged open the door. "Kenz? You okay?" She came in and sat softly on the bed before she laid behind her friend and wrapped her arm around her. "Kenzie?"

[likebraveheart]

Kenzie was surprised when she didn't just burst into tears. She had probably cried herself out in the shower. Sure, she hadn't been in there long, but it was enough to sob her heart out while the shower spray drowned out the noise of it. She probably didn't even have any tears left, and part of her felt like she didn't deserve to indulge in them, anyway.

She opened her eyes, which probably looked like they belonged on a zombie, and looked up at her friend. "I fucked everything." Wow, that was a clever double entendre considering her morning.

[rockmeall_night]

Jules' chin rest on Kenzie's shoulder so she could look at her face, and her heart sank that little bit more. Seeing Braden and Kenzie both hit rock bottom really had her wondering what the hell kind of shift they'd had. "What happened? How did you fuck everything?"

[likebraveheart]

Kenzie pressed her lips together and swallowed heavily. "I got poorly at work. End of shift, we were stocking up to go back on the road. But I just started to feel all weird, like, so Braden dragged me back in for a wee checkover. I dinnae think he was going to let me away from there without trying to tackle me or something, so I went. Figured I just needed sleep. Gonna have to be one helluva big fecking sleep." She put her hand over her eyes. "I'm knocked up. Pregnant. Arood four weeks, apparently."

[rockmeall_night]

Jules had followed along right up until the last part. "Preg--Four--Nay, nay, it cannae be. Is this a bad joke? Tell me it's a bad joke, Kenz. You're just having a lend, aye? Any second we'll laugh aboot it." She watched her friend's face, but realised it wasn't a joke. A cold feeling washed over her, and she shivered. "Do you know who the da' is? I cannae believe... you're always safe, aye?"

[likebraveheart]

"Aye," Kenzie confirmed flatly, trying desperately not to let her mind force itself back to Braden. "But evidently these days you should go oot in a chastity belt with a fucking flesh-eating pirhanna strapped to your upper thigh. Four weeks, Jules. Four. The week of my divorce. I must'ved fecked half the single lads in Edinburgh that week. It wasnae even funny how bad I tried to fuck away the notion of it. I cannae even mind what some of them looked like. One day, I did four in one day. Footy players from the local team."

[rockmeall_night]

"Shit," Jules gasped. "Four?! Nay that I'm judging, just... well, you did what you had to. There's nout wrong with that other than the fact you've gotten yourself knocked up. No wonder Braden's acting like he's been kicked in the nads, like. He willnae talk to me. I thought he was genuinely gonna rip my head off. He wasnae pleased to find out I was your flatmate. I think he, erm... wants more. He willnae say though because he thinks you just want mates."

Jules had apparently not considered the fact Kenzie would be trying to keep her mind off the Evans brother, her mouth just starting with the verbal diarrhoea as the shock set in.

"What are you gonna do with the baby?"

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Kenzie moved to sit up in bed and buried her face in both hands when more tears finally did push through the barrier. "Just when I thought I had screwed it with him completely already, it actually turns out I've screwed it a hundred times worse! I hadnae had a chance to tell him I lived with you! Thursday night we met for that drink and... you know. Then he slept most of the next day before we went on shift, which was a fuck of a shift! Then... then... I didnae have the chance to bring it up casually, especially nay when I thought it might make things weird for him with the whole stuff going on with you and Gus! But you dinnae understand! That cannae be why he's pissed off, he's not like that! I think I... I... told him he had given me so much already, and that I couldnae ask more of him. So he said to me 'What if I wanted to' and then I clearly lost my fucking head totally because I pushed him away! Told him I was tough and didnae need help! And you know why I did it? Because he doesnae need to be fucking tainted by this. He's too

[rockmeall_night]

Jules slowly dragged herself up to be sitting next to Jules and reached out to take her friend's hand to keep the physical comfort going. Sometimes even the smallest touch could ground a person. She gave a small shake of her head. "You're wrong, you know. He's already feeling tainted, like. He cannae be tainted by you, by you asking him for more. He wants to give it. I cannae believe you just shot him down like that. There's nay anything wrong with you, aye? Nay a thing. There isnae anything he couldnae come to love if you just let him in. He doesnae need protecting. He thinks women only think he's good for a cuddle, and nay anything else because of his balls."

[likebraveheart]

"What? No... no! No, no, no!" Kenzie wailed, looking at Jules in horror through a curtain of messy red hair which she soon dragged out of her eyes. "The wanting a cuddle was separate to the other thing! It wasnae the same thing! He wasnae meant to jumble it all up into one thing! It was wanting a cuddle, and then it was something else! What have I done?!"

[rockmeall_night]

"Oh, Kenz..." Jules pulled her friend into a hug and kissed the top of her head. She'd known Kenzie for years. She was the best female friend Jules had ever had, and it broke her heart watching her suffer like this. "I don't know, sweetie, but you're gonna have to try and fix it somehow. He wasnae listening to me. He doesnae believe you were falling for him when you just used him for sex."

[likebraveheart]

Kenzie just looked at Jules, horrified. "No, I didnae use him! I-I asked, and he said aye! He said it was okay! I wouldnae... I wouldnae done that to him if he felt like I was using him. I wouldnae have hurt him!" She hated herself for her inability to fight off the tears that seemed to just want to keep falling in abundance. "I cannae believe the thinks that," she said in a tiny, helpless voice.

[rockmeall_night]

"I know, sweetie, I know. I wasnae saying you did. I'm just telling you what he said. He was... He was really angry. I havenae ever seen Braden like that. Ever. I think maybe he was realising he was feeling something, and then... it's just exploded in everyone's face."

[likebraveheart]

The more Jules told her about Braden, the more Kenzie felt like she was losing her footing. "I-I dinnae... what am I supposed to-" She held her hands up helplessly. "I have to get rid of it. I havenae even known for half a day and it's already destroyed everything."

[rockmeall_night]

"Dinnae think aboot that now, okay? Just get some rest. I willnae go anywhere, promise. It sounds like it's been an intense day, so just rest." Jules rubbed her friend's shoulder, and sighed softly. "But whatever you decide, I'll be there for you."