my current whereabouts.
i've been doing a lot of thinking lately.
i've been flooded with options of where to go and what to do.
i'm trying to make sense of everything in my life.
who do i want to know?
where do i want to be?
what do i want to do?
after seriously considering moving to syracuse to rock out with keith brown in a band we were makin up called the Iconoclash and after going up there to visit him and check out the scenery, i decided to go up there. i told a lot of people that i was moving away. i wanted to, anyway. i liked the idea of being far off livin the rock star dream; workin in a tattoo parlour, playing guitar for a kick ass band, partying with hot chicks and thinking that thats what i really wanted. i mean, isnt that what guys my age want?
anyway, i changed my mind and decided not to move upstate.
solely based on two things.
1. the three bedroom with kitchen and bath apartment that noel is renting me + the job promotion.
2. i would have too much guilt and feel like i was running away from some of my problems. i'm scared that i'll feel alone. i'm scared that i might go up to syracuse and things'll work out for a while and then it'll get fucked up and i'll wind up with no money to pay my bills, nowhere to go and no one to go to.
another thing is i'd definately miss the people close to me here on long island.
...and the beaches.
i havent been doing too much drawing, really.
i put some projects on the side because i'm too busy with my real job. i'd come home and just be too tired, mentally and physically to put myself in the mindset it takes to draw.
i'm reading a lot of webcomics though (www.pvponline.com). i'm going to start one soon on jonslostatsea.com
i gave out the buttons i had made to the people who made an impact in my life.
if you havent recieved one, its probably because you moved and i need your address, i havent seen you in a long time or i just dont know you.
i've been flooded with options of where to go and what to do.
i'm trying to make sense of everything in my life.
who do i want to know?
where do i want to be?
what do i want to do?
after seriously considering moving to syracuse to rock out with keith brown in a band we were makin up called the Iconoclash and after going up there to visit him and check out the scenery, i decided to go up there. i told a lot of people that i was moving away. i wanted to, anyway. i liked the idea of being far off livin the rock star dream; workin in a tattoo parlour, playing guitar for a kick ass band, partying with hot chicks and thinking that thats what i really wanted. i mean, isnt that what guys my age want?
anyway, i changed my mind and decided not to move upstate.
solely based on two things.
1. the three bedroom with kitchen and bath apartment that noel is renting me + the job promotion.
2. i would have too much guilt and feel like i was running away from some of my problems. i'm scared that i'll feel alone. i'm scared that i might go up to syracuse and things'll work out for a while and then it'll get fucked up and i'll wind up with no money to pay my bills, nowhere to go and no one to go to.
another thing is i'd definately miss the people close to me here on long island.
...and the beaches.
i havent been doing too much drawing, really.
i put some projects on the side because i'm too busy with my real job. i'd come home and just be too tired, mentally and physically to put myself in the mindset it takes to draw.
i'm reading a lot of webcomics though (www.pvponline.com). i'm going to start one soon on jonslostatsea.com
i gave out the buttons i had made to the people who made an impact in my life.
if you havent recieved one, its probably because you moved and i need your address, i havent seen you in a long time or i just dont know you.