Hoping
today i was just having one of those days where i felt like breaking down and crying but for no reason at all. i don't know if it was so much that there's no reason but i just can't really figure out what it is. there's just something about fall sundays that makes me sad. it just brings back a lot of memories. the cool air and the sky looking white like that. it reminded me of when i used to play for the junior bucs and it just made me wanna strap blue and gold helmet back on again. i just feel empty inside. anyways i found this song by the descendents that blink covered called hope. the lyrics are just so ironic. its exactly how i've been feeling for so long now.
"why can't you see you torture me?
you're already thinking 'bout someone else
when he comes home you'll be in his arms
and i'll be gone
but i know, my day will come
i know someday, i'll be the only one"
i can't help but feeling like that. it just breaks my heart. i feel like im not important. like ill always be here when im needed, but other than that i mean nothing. it's weird. i don't know. i just feel used.
"I saw you again. I think you used me again"
"why can't you see you torture me?
you're already thinking 'bout someone else
when he comes home you'll be in his arms
and i'll be gone
but i know, my day will come
i know someday, i'll be the only one"
i can't help but feeling like that. it just breaks my heart. i feel like im not important. like ill always be here when im needed, but other than that i mean nothing. it's weird. i don't know. i just feel used.
"I saw you again. I think you used me again"