even the heartless feel sick sometimes.
There is some stuff that can't be changed. there is some things that can be. but sometimes i want things to change, but they don't. i can't get things to change. its awesome and horrible at the same time. i miss someone dearly. i'm short on time here. i need more. always need more time. what should i do. how do i ask. so many confusing questions. no where to turn. no where to run. i'm feeling home sick and i'm in california. its a shame really i'm less then 20 miles from the beach. and it wouldn't be right for me to go there right now. without her. not as us. but idunno yknow. good night. xoxox.