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it is the end of another era.
i am no longer working at ***** ****** ***. i could not possibly be any happier about this. I gave my two weeks notice and then my boss told me to gather my things and leave that day. she later told the staff it was because i did not love her. if this sounds like a fucked up situation, that is just the tip of the iceberg.
i have never had this much free time before. it is....weird. today i went out for brunch with my roomate and then went to pleasantville and went hiking with my dad at the ward pound ridge reservation (where i will be working for the month of may). it was really beautiful and inspiring and wonderful.
tomorrow i am going to wander aimlessly in the city until shayne gets out of work.
friday i am hoping to ride at my old barn.
saturday i am going backpacking until sunday - when i will likely have a mental break.
next tuesday i am seeing tim and eric. then wednesday i'm going to philly to see animal collective.
thursday i am meeting my new boss and helping to set up the mist nets at ward pound ridge.
after that i am pretty much working the new job.
which brings me to my next point...
i don't know if i am quite ready to face what my life will inevitably become this summer. in may i will likely stay in the cabin on the reservation with two strangers. i have unreliable cell phone service, no tv, and no internet. 5000 acres of wilderness and a lot of free time. nobody to talk to while i am working. i am guessing i will read a bit, run a lot, and possibly panic.
after that, i move to rhode island to work on the saltmarsh sharp-tailed sparrow project. i will be living in a trailer with a complete stranger and standing knee-deep in mud all day. i am half excited, half nervous. i have no safety net, no comfort zone. i am, however, completely confident in my ability to meet people and get them to love me. i am (almost) not worried about keeping in touch with my friends - most of them anyway.
this job ruined me. this job made me better. this job hurt my feelings. this job gave me confidence.
my life is confusing. i don't like justifying it to people. these past seven months have been such a mix of emotions. i have changed a lot. i am an entirely different person. you've changed too.
i am no longer working at ***** ****** ***. i could not possibly be any happier about this. I gave my two weeks notice and then my boss told me to gather my things and leave that day. she later told the staff it was because i did not love her. if this sounds like a fucked up situation, that is just the tip of the iceberg.
i have never had this much free time before. it is....weird. today i went out for brunch with my roomate and then went to pleasantville and went hiking with my dad at the ward pound ridge reservation (where i will be working for the month of may). it was really beautiful and inspiring and wonderful.
tomorrow i am going to wander aimlessly in the city until shayne gets out of work.
friday i am hoping to ride at my old barn.
saturday i am going backpacking until sunday - when i will likely have a mental break.
next tuesday i am seeing tim and eric. then wednesday i'm going to philly to see animal collective.
thursday i am meeting my new boss and helping to set up the mist nets at ward pound ridge.
after that i am pretty much working the new job.
which brings me to my next point...
i don't know if i am quite ready to face what my life will inevitably become this summer. in may i will likely stay in the cabin on the reservation with two strangers. i have unreliable cell phone service, no tv, and no internet. 5000 acres of wilderness and a lot of free time. nobody to talk to while i am working. i am guessing i will read a bit, run a lot, and possibly panic.
after that, i move to rhode island to work on the saltmarsh sharp-tailed sparrow project. i will be living in a trailer with a complete stranger and standing knee-deep in mud all day. i am half excited, half nervous. i have no safety net, no comfort zone. i am, however, completely confident in my ability to meet people and get them to love me. i am (almost) not worried about keeping in touch with my friends - most of them anyway.
this job ruined me. this job made me better. this job hurt my feelings. this job gave me confidence.
my life is confusing. i don't like justifying it to people. these past seven months have been such a mix of emotions. i have changed a lot. i am an entirely different person. you've changed too.