the acts of other people are quickly ruining my life
i'm reading your note over again
there is not a word that i comprehend
exept when you signed it
i will love you always and forever
as much as im told to just be positive and pray, its just not that easy. i dont believe in god, i cant. and how am i supposed to stay positive when i hear how many soldiers 21 and under have died the day before every single fucking day in school, and like today when i saw the newspaper in work and they showed a dead soldier with blood coming out of his mouth. how am i supposed to stay positive? everyone says im sorry, i understand. but they dont. i have never felt more of a horrible gut wrenching empty feeling in my life. and knowing i cant do anything about it fucking sucks. im just so fucking scared.
and i didnt have any money for christmas presents this year.
and i need a second job.
and i need my friends.
there is not a word that i comprehend
exept when you signed it
i will love you always and forever
as much as im told to just be positive and pray, its just not that easy. i dont believe in god, i cant. and how am i supposed to stay positive when i hear how many soldiers 21 and under have died the day before every single fucking day in school, and like today when i saw the newspaper in work and they showed a dead soldier with blood coming out of his mouth. how am i supposed to stay positive? everyone says im sorry, i understand. but they dont. i have never felt more of a horrible gut wrenching empty feeling in my life. and knowing i cant do anything about it fucking sucks. im just so fucking scared.
and i didnt have any money for christmas presents this year.
and i need a second job.
and i need my friends.