I wanna rewrite my heart and let the future in...
oh boy. How the boys come and go.
Here one day to sweep you off your feet and promise you the world...
Then fucking other guys behind your back and sticking drugs up their ass the next. Ya see like 2 years ago if this whole breakup w blaine would have happened to me I would have been so devastated, I can really feel how much I have grown as a person just by the way I have handled this breakup. ESPECIALLY considering the circumstances.
lies, cheating, mental and physical abuse towards each other...
I honestly feel that we were both over the relationship even before we had actually ended it. what am i saying? I KNOW we were over it. I mean i dont even know the guy he is today compared to who i fell in love with... this motivated, sweet, polite, passionate farm boy moved to denver and became this egotistical drunk who didnt care about anyones feelings but his own. He bacame a pathological liar who began to lose touch with reality... and ultimately lost me.
Here are a few things i have learned from this experience...
-NEVER hurt the one you love. physically or mentally.
-NEVER cheat.
-Stay truthful, never leave out details.
-Stay away from the boys who don't work for what they have.
-Once a cheater, always a cheater.
-Fallow your gut instinct.
-DENISE N MELANIE are ALWAYS right.
-Never fight while intoxicated.
-Threesomes are not good for your relationship.
-Do not fall in love with an addict, your love is disposable to them.
Overall I learned a lot. More than I can think to write right now. And I also don't regret this whole thing either. I mean, yes. It sucks. I do hurt. I hate seeing him out with a new boy and I'm sure he feels the same way... I wish it was a lot easier like maybe we could just relocate to different parts of the earth or we could have a block option like on facebook but for our real lives and it would be an "out of sight, out of mind" type of thing.
but thats life.
I have met a new boy. Hes adorable and southern. but what I like about him most is that I honestly feel like I can trust him. I don't think he would hide anything behind my back or let me catch him in a lie in the long run. Hes truthful and open with me. and I appreciate it so much.
It actually feels good to date a guy with aspirations, morals, and work ethic...
It feels good to finally date a nice guy =] I deserve it.
<3
Here one day to sweep you off your feet and promise you the world...
Then fucking other guys behind your back and sticking drugs up their ass the next. Ya see like 2 years ago if this whole breakup w blaine would have happened to me I would have been so devastated, I can really feel how much I have grown as a person just by the way I have handled this breakup. ESPECIALLY considering the circumstances.
lies, cheating, mental and physical abuse towards each other...
I honestly feel that we were both over the relationship even before we had actually ended it. what am i saying? I KNOW we were over it. I mean i dont even know the guy he is today compared to who i fell in love with... this motivated, sweet, polite, passionate farm boy moved to denver and became this egotistical drunk who didnt care about anyones feelings but his own. He bacame a pathological liar who began to lose touch with reality... and ultimately lost me.
Here are a few things i have learned from this experience...
-NEVER hurt the one you love. physically or mentally.
-NEVER cheat.
-Stay truthful, never leave out details.
-Stay away from the boys who don't work for what they have.
-Once a cheater, always a cheater.
-Fallow your gut instinct.
-DENISE N MELANIE are ALWAYS right.
-Never fight while intoxicated.
-Threesomes are not good for your relationship.
-Do not fall in love with an addict, your love is disposable to them.
Overall I learned a lot. More than I can think to write right now. And I also don't regret this whole thing either. I mean, yes. It sucks. I do hurt. I hate seeing him out with a new boy and I'm sure he feels the same way... I wish it was a lot easier like maybe we could just relocate to different parts of the earth or we could have a block option like on facebook but for our real lives and it would be an "out of sight, out of mind" type of thing.
but thats life.
I have met a new boy. Hes adorable and southern. but what I like about him most is that I honestly feel like I can trust him. I don't think he would hide anything behind my back or let me catch him in a lie in the long run. Hes truthful and open with me. and I appreciate it so much.
It actually feels good to date a guy with aspirations, morals, and work ethic...
It feels good to finally date a nice guy =] I deserve it.
<3