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now i know why it hurts so much.
because though we haven't been that close,
we talked and you gave advice, we even did things together, just the two of us.
i was grateful to you, i treated you as someone i respected, i asked you for advice.
the many rants, the long comments.
all because of one slip on my part, i can't believe that you would judge so promptly.
so i'm two-faced just because of one mistake?
well, that's some awesome judging.
i'm not being resentful. it just saddens me that you could do something like this, so swift and *poof* there are no more grounds for talking. you didn't even hear me out. and i was afraid. afraid of what you would say when i confront you. because right now, i don't know if i should judge you because of this too and other minor details which i used to forgo but now it just seems to add up.
but i guess i won't.
not trying to target, this is my 'blog' i have every right to post what i want, no?
numb.
school has been hectic, this is only the start of the year omgosh.
seriously idk how i'm gonna survive D:
i know i have to, but still.
hectic school schedule = online time is for discussion and homework = no time to fangirl = my boring blog :(
PI is driving me crazy, not to mention the various upcoming tests.
and i majorly suck in econs. wondering if i took the correct combination now. but heck, i don't wanna do H2 math :/
sigh.
i have to make through this.
because though we haven't been that close,
we talked and you gave advice, we even did things together, just the two of us.
i was grateful to you, i treated you as someone i respected, i asked you for advice.
the many rants, the long comments.
all because of one slip on my part, i can't believe that you would judge so promptly.
so i'm two-faced just because of one mistake?
well, that's some awesome judging.
i'm not being resentful. it just saddens me that you could do something like this, so swift and *poof* there are no more grounds for talking. you didn't even hear me out. and i was afraid. afraid of what you would say when i confront you. because right now, i don't know if i should judge you because of this too and other minor details which i used to forgo but now it just seems to add up.
but i guess i won't.
not trying to target, this is my 'blog' i have every right to post what i want, no?
numb.
school has been hectic, this is only the start of the year omgosh.
seriously idk how i'm gonna survive D:
i know i have to, but still.
hectic school schedule = online time is for discussion and homework = no time to fangirl = my boring blog :(
PI is driving me crazy, not to mention the various upcoming tests.
and i majorly suck in econs. wondering if i took the correct combination now. but heck, i don't wanna do H2 math :/
sigh.
i have to make through this.