spiritual quest
lately i find myself thinking increasingly about religion and spirituality. i have always considered myself a christian, primarily because i was raised in a christian home, but i have come to realize over the last few years that i am really unsure of my "beliefs". i don't know what i feel is true and right, and i have a deep-seated hunger for something more. i want to know more, i want to be sure about not only what i believe but WHY i believe it. i find myself thinking about things such as "is god real?", "is there a hell and/or a heaven?", "what is the meaning of life and human existence?" and countless other questions along these lines.
i feel hypocritical for claiming christianity or really any religion at all right now. and then i feel sad. sad for feeling spriritually bankrupt and blank. most people at my stage of life know their beliefs and are comfortable with who they are. how can i raise my children to be faithful and spiritual if i am so clueless, and does it even matter???
something in me says "yes, it does matter.". something in me is saying "seek answers. don't give up."
i am reading. i am seeking. i am praying. what will come of this i don't know. but i hope for clarity and purpose and faith. and hope.
i feel hypocritical for claiming christianity or really any religion at all right now. and then i feel sad. sad for feeling spriritually bankrupt and blank. most people at my stage of life know their beliefs and are comfortable with who they are. how can i raise my children to be faithful and spiritual if i am so clueless, and does it even matter???
something in me says "yes, it does matter.". something in me is saying "seek answers. don't give up."
i am reading. i am seeking. i am praying. what will come of this i don't know. but i hope for clarity and purpose and faith. and hope.