so...yeah.....ok

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so, i'm just here at home, kinda watching tv and being online. it's really good to be home to spend time with my family. i'm pretty much alone when i'm at school, so it's good to be with family. i'm not very social which explains why i don not have many friends. i just do not seem to click with people, probably because it takes me a while to trust someone. i'm pretty excited that i get to have time to rest because i'm going to need this rest for next semester. i won't be taking may classes, like five, but i will be in a play that will cause me to exert a lot of energy. i'm kind of scared about the show and my abilities in doing the part justice. i'm excited that i got the part of i really want to do it, i am just un sure of myself when it comes to having talent.

love is funny, although i've never felt love in a romantic way. there was this one time when i had a kind of brotherly love which was cool because i never thought i would love someone so much that was not apart of my family. that person isn't here anymore and we really don't talk unless i give him a call, but when he was here we it was cool.

i question a lot of things and wonder. i wonder if i'll ever to be on stage in front of thousands of people, i wonder if i'll ever be on a giant big screen where people go and pay to see it, i wonder if i'll be happy, but the one thing that i always wonder about is if i will ever find love.

i really do hope so.

i'll just have to wait and see what happens, if i really do find that person who will put their hand in mine, love!!!!!