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I'm sad. I feel overwhelmed with grief because I'm sick, I've been sick and I've had to take care of myself and I forgot what that's like. I forgot not having someone to make you sick food and give you you're medicine and make sure you have all you need so that you can just relax in bed to get better.
A month has gone by and it doesn't even feel that long. I thought I was doing better, well I am doing better but I've been having more bad days than usual. Being in bed alone at night, watching things alone that I would only watch with you. It all hurts so much. I still feel this huge emptyness inside me that I can't seem to fill no matter how busy I keep myself. You're always in the back of my mind and I hate it. I want it to go away already. Yea I miss what we had, I want it back, but it's not going to happen so I just want to feel better already. I want to be completely and utterly happy again.
A month has gone by and it doesn't even feel that long. I thought I was doing better, well I am doing better but I've been having more bad days than usual. Being in bed alone at night, watching things alone that I would only watch with you. It all hurts so much. I still feel this huge emptyness inside me that I can't seem to fill no matter how busy I keep myself. You're always in the back of my mind and I hate it. I want it to go away already. Yea I miss what we had, I want it back, but it's not going to happen so I just want to feel better already. I want to be completely and utterly happy again.