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Dec 11, 2006 16:15

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clericpreston December 11 2006, 05:47:55 UTC
John stretches lazily and rubs his cheek against Apollo's chest lightly. "Mmmm? Sure."

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lights_midnight December 11 2006, 05:52:53 UTC
"What do you prefer when having sex?" He cards his fingers through John's hair. "I'm just curious. I'll tell first if you want...?"

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clericpreston December 11 2006, 05:54:43 UTC
"Wha?" He blinks and looks up, surprised. "Uhm. You might have to? I'm not sure I fully understand what you're asking..."

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lights_midnight December 11 2006, 06:00:11 UTC
"Well..." He leans to steal a kiss and then flops back for a lazy stretch. "For example, I love sucking you off. I happen to really enjoy giving blowjobs. And I really, really appreciated the other night when you took me. I enjoy all the sex we have, don't me wrong, but those are two things I enjoy more than others."

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clericpreston December 11 2006, 06:05:54 UTC
John blinks slowly a few times, processing what Apollo's said. Were they really having this conversation? But...

"Aren't those the things that, for the most part, offer me more pleasure than you?"

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lights_midnight December 11 2006, 06:14:17 UTC
Apollo shrugs and smiles. "Well, I can't plug into your brain and find out the exact comparitive levels of endorphins but... Personally, I can't think of much that feels better for me. I generally prefer being taken to taking someone.

"And, well, I like giving head. What more can I say?" He pokes John's nose.

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clericpreston December 11 2006, 06:23:27 UTC
John's nose wrinkles reflexively at the poking. He's lost in thought.

"I... haven't ever really thought of it in those terms. I know I like making you happy. I enjoy it more if I know you are." He hums thoughtfully, staring off into space. "I'm not sure if I enjoy being taken by someone more, or if I'm just more used to it. That's just the way it's been, for the most part. I'm rarely the aggressive one in sex. Mostly because..."

He sorts out the best way to explain. "I had sex without feeling for so long, so much of my life. And then all of the sudden, I was doing it again but I was feeling everything. And, it became readily apparent how easily I could be hurt with it. I suppose I'm afraid to push too hard or too far."

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lights_midnight December 11 2006, 06:30:54 UTC
"Mm, John?" Apollo sounds curious. "You do know that being agressive or submissive and topping or bottoming are different, right? I don't like being dominated. In fact I immensely dislike feeling dominated or like I'm being made to be submissive. But I do enjoy being fucked."

He kisses his lover again. "I know it's gotta be confusing as hell and kinda scary a lot of the time because you just flung headfirst into a world that expected you to emotionally be an adult when you'd never had a chance to learn how. But... do you get what I mean about being sibmissive and liking getting taken?"

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clericpreston December 11 2006, 06:38:33 UTC
This conversation was going to stray quickly into things John really wasn't excited about admitting. His own personal deviations still bothered him.

"I think I do." He had tried to explain it once to Errol. The difference between wanting to be held down and wanting to be belittled. He didn't do a very good job of it, if the end of the conversation was any indication.

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lights_midnight December 11 2006, 06:44:14 UTC
"Yeah. I don't like feeling like I'm not able to take control when I want to. But I did really like you taking charge a bit. And the whole fucking me thing..." He's trying to behave. He really is. "Was good. So good. But I don't need to try and dominate me when you do it. I won't object to it, but that's not the aspect that really gets me going.

"I s'pose-" He wriggles slightly. "What I'm asking is what really, really gets you going?"

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clericpreston December 11 2006, 06:55:20 UTC
"Between the two?" He thinks again and then shrugs a little apologetically. "I honestly don't know. I haven't had as much experience with being the one doing the taking. It's difficult to make a distinction."

"I'm not sure I'd want to have to live with just one or the other."

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lights_midnight December 11 2006, 07:03:47 UTC
"No, not between the two, you adorable, sexy nut." Apollo gives up pretending and rolls over, grabbing John's wrists and holding them to the bed.

"I want to know what you like in bed. I want to you to know what I like, and me to know what you like, because it makes sex so much better when you're under no doubt that what are you are doing is really making your lover hot. And while I already know you like being pinned, I want to know that if I do something and you prefer it anther way, you'll tell me."

He straddles John's hips. "Or, I can get completely distracted like I am and just ravish you, but this conversation kinda matters to me, so I'm trying not to."

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clericpreston December 11 2006, 07:11:36 UTC
He can't quite stop the thrill of excitement he feels with his wrists held immobile. Following quickly on the heels of the rush of desire is a flash of shame that has him blushing to the roots of his hair. He does his best to tromp down the excitement and answer even though he's trying to find anywhere to look but at Apollo.

"I can't think of anything you do that I'd prefer some other way. I know you've been careful with me so far. I appreciate it... the time to settle into my own head."

Looks up finally and gives a lopsided smile. "You don't always have to wait for me to come to you, though. You can tell me if you want me."

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lights_midnight December 11 2006, 07:19:11 UTC
"I never want you to feel like the sex is more important than the affection. I didn't want to push things. I know how much Errol-" Fucked you up, fucked you over, made you feel like you're only worth the pleasure you can give- "confused you about it all."

He can't- not won't, can't- admit to the thrill of John's wrists in his hands, pinned under his own weight.

"John... Tell me to get off you, because otherwise I'm not sure how much more meaningful conversation we're going to have."

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clericpreston December 12 2006, 03:54:25 UTC
"I think I understand what you're getting at. Sex is important, but not the most important thing." He nods and tries very hard not to squirm. He's more acutely aware of the position their in because of how he is pinned, more so than he would be if Apollo was simply sitting on him.

"Shift over," John tips his chin to the side, obligingly asking to be released. "We should try to finish the conversation if it's important to you. We have all night for the rest."

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lights_midnight December 12 2006, 04:01:28 UTC
Apollo rolls off John, forcing his breathing back to even. "Sex is important. Affection is more important, and while sex can be affection... Actually the main thing I'm getting at is that sex is much about affection as anything else, and just like you enjoy it more knowing I'm enjoying it, I wanna know what gets you going for the same reason."

He grazes his hand over John's stomach. "I want to know that when I push you flat on your back and fuck myself on you, it's something that you really want and you wouldn't prefer something else."

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