Seventh Capsule
[Make way for sucky entry #7! ^_^]
[Public!]You know, it's about time I updated this journal. There's something really big to share with all of you, too - I finally have some of my memories back, and this time I'm convinced they're the real thing ( Read more... )
[Public!]You know, it's about time I updated this journal. There's something really big to share with all of you, too - I finally have some of my memories back, and this time I'm convinced they're the real thing ( Read more... )
[OH GOD SO, SO LATE. I'M SORRY, MUN. )= ]
...Thanks, Fi. That really means a lot to me.
I hope it'll be easier to figure out when new memories come in. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous, but...I'm actually kind of excited too. Do you think maybe I was a superhero back home? With a name like Megaman written in my bios, it does sound plausible, doesn't it? Add that to the presence of protection protocols in my system, and it does look like Dr. Light had a benevolent role in mind for me. A globe-trotting tool of mass-murder should've probably had a more menacing name, anyway. Something like "Death Man," maybe.
[yeah, that wasn't a lame joke, X.]
No matter which way you look at it, though, he was still taking a chance with me. He said the testing program would take approximiately thirty years to verify my ethical stability, and it looks to me like he knew it wasn't foolproof. What's more, he knew he wouldn't live to see the end of the test period, and he didn't have anyone he could entrust the project to. What made him go through with the experiment instead of terminating it? Wasn't the prior generation of robotics sufficient for the needs of mankind?
Besides...if you think about it, the introduction of emotion and free will to a robot's central program would actually threaten its overall stability, especially if that robot couldn't learn to cope with the pressures unique to those elements. No obvious material benefit is gained from them.
[filter filter ffff i love how that X8 reference has become its own internet meme by now]
...Looking back on it, the experience as a whole wasn't so bad. Even if it wasn't real, the feeling of love was...well, the only bad thing about it was watching it end. I wonder if that's what the real thing'll feel like someday?
Maybe we have to trust in each other and what we have, more than what we're given by the island or anything else. Is it possible that's what the gods were trying to show us?
[s-still a little awkward himself despite best efforts. also this post took a while and i'm a little proud of it; better than i was expecting to do. ^_^]
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But I'm... I'm very glad he went through with it, regardless of the risks. It might not be clear why he did it, or what he intended - but I believe it was for the best. Whatever his reasoning... I think he made the right choice, in the end.
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I... I think so. It was rather strange, to feel like that so suddenly; I can't think of anything like it. I also regret it ending... but it was certainly nice while it lasted.
That's a wonderful thought. Maybe that is what we need to learn - we shouldn't dwell on the past or what is real. We should live now, shouldn't we?
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...You know, if you keep going, I think I'm gonna end up blushing. Thank you again, Fiona. I know I've said this already, but...it really means a lot to me. I'm looking forward to those memories more than ever.
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It was. If anything, I hope the experience can help prepare us for the real thing if it's meant to happen someday.
In the end, I can't really blame everyone else for feeling upset by the event. While I'd say letting the negative things overtake us should've been avoided, I also realize that I don't know the others' circumstances. It's too possible they had extra burdens making this harder on them. There should never be judgement without understanding.
[Wow, X, you surprised your mun again.]
That being said, I'd definitely subscribe to the "live now" philosophy.
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That's certainly an idea. *so much blushing* We'll have to wait and see, won't we?
You're right. There is far too much most of us don't understand... it'd be unfair of us to make assumptions...
... I do like that one, actually. Deal with it as it comes, right?
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There's nothing to apologize for. It's not the bad kind of blushing, anyway.
[*colorchange* You Got: Journal Filter! durrr he heard her laugh last time but doesn't see the blushing now]
I guess so. If it happens to me when you're still around, I'll tell you all about it.
Absolutely.
[ffff he's so innocent. a-also, sorry it's so short; character only had that much to say to it, however cheerfully]
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... Of course. I'll do the same.
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