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[lightofnight]

life seems so distant from me right now.
and breathing is another chore
a chore i put off over and over again......

been thinking alot lately. just about stuff. anything.
its scary too cus i dont really know waht to think or feel or belive or trust in or live for or die for or be here for anymore. i dont know myself anymore, maybe because i dont know those around me, or maybe becuase im not much of a person to get to know. lately things have been crazy, my life has been thrown in a box and shook around until i'm absolutely sick of living. and all i can do to change things is think..

i just hope i can figure things out soon. before i get drastic.

scary thing is im not scared of anything or anyone anymore.
i beleive i have lost all limits..

"My world is closing in
on the inside
but I'm not showing it

When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I'm broken
I'm broken

Only one can understand
and only one can hold the hand
of the broken
of the broken

When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And you hold me in your arms

again.."