a reflection...

[lightningryder]

this has really been one of the hardes weeks I have had in a very long time. It was full of a lot of mistakes and a lack of focus. I had little to no self confidence to speak of, and it seemed to get worse and worse, until i started to doubt myself and what i am doing. Thats over now. These days, all I really seem to have is work. I wake up, take a shower, get dresses, and go to work. Then i come home.....and do what, chris? hardly anything. If i go out it's to eat my first meal of the day, if its not just wendy's or eegees...It seems to be a really boring and sad life- Not to mention the fact that Monday i was over in my cash by 100.00 dollars, tuesday I was short 20, wednesday, i shorted a non customer 200.00 on his check that i cashed, and thursday i had to clean up all my messes and accept the shortage that paying back that customer left. things seemed to be snowballing out of control and everything sucked. friday, though--things changed. About two weeks ago, my branch of Wells Fargo (the next stage) got a new store manager. His name is Roby, and he is from the casas adobes branch at Ina and Oracle. He really is a cool guy and he handles our customers VERY well. there is, however, the inevitable turnover whenever a new manager takes over--Christina, my favorite Personal Banker, got a Roby's old position, so is now leaving our branch, and Elvia, my awesome service manager, accepted a position at Continental Ranch, a traditional Branch down the road. I hate to see them go...ao that and a much better schedule prompted me to poat for a full time teller position at elvia's new branch too. I really thought that would help me out. I'm going to real estate school on the 8th, and i would like to get back into the flute club, take a kickboxing and/or yoga class, and maybe even audition for the civic orchestra of tucson, but all that is contingent on the fact that i get off work at 5 o'clock every day, and if i work on a saturday, it's not a day long commitment. sounds good, right? set in the confusion--Roby asks me friday why i want to post for the position at continental. So i explain to him how there is a lot that i want to do outside of work, and how i cant do them if i have to be on the teller line until 7 evryday, or even a few days. the game is on--he offered me my schedule at my branch. traditional hours at an in store location. plus limiting my saturdays to once a month. I was shocked that he could make me an offer like that, so i agreed to stay under those conditions. but then had to say that i really wasn't happy with the teller role or teller pay, and that, although i had wanted to be a lead teller, i want to be a personal banker now--i think it's a better fit. so roby and i stayed after work friday night and had a career planning meeting, just to see what he could do for me, and how i could go about meeting my future in wells fargo. he invited me to post for a position that is open at my branch right now, and that he may hire 2--and i may have a slight advantage because i know the clients already. i agreed, so i will be interviewing for a banker spot at my branch, and here's the kicker--reguardless of wether or not i actually get the banker position-Roby is sending me to banker training in july. he said that he wants me to be ready to move on and even if it doesn't work out to where i get the job at my branch, he will have me trained to go to another branch as a pb...because "that's what managers do" awesome, right? CONFUSION--i want to do real estate...maybe...or i thought i did...why can't I?? so many questions---leave it to mom to make everything so damn easy--"just play by ear and take the best opportunity you get" DUH!! why couldn't i come up with that? so here we are with the confusion subsided and a new outlook on the career goals that i have--and a new schedule so that i can enrich my life again with my music and other activities.
yesterday was Danny's 16th bday--i cannot believe it. he's old now. and driving..i think tonight we will have a little get together..that will be fun,