Catch Up
Ok, so I haven't updated in forever. Well, I graduated high school. I'm a college girl now! It's fun. But I don't want to lose the friends that I have made. I want to spend time with them before I move to Anderson on August 13. If you want to hang out, please call me!
With one of my halves gone, (I miss them sooo much), I am feeling really lonely right now. I have nothing to do at night anymore. I haven't dated in a while. This isn't a bad thing, I'm enjoying being single, but I'm having to go through a lot on my own. Well I'm not really on my own, being as I have a great family, great friends, and Jesus beside me all the time. I just feel lonely even though I'm surrounded by people. My only comfort was my 5 year old cousin Ansley who spent the past week with me. But she is now also gone. I have only my songs and DVD's to comfort me. I really am not that bad, I'm just feeling lonely because I was stupid and watched a bunch of romantic movies and then talked to someone who is soooo in love, it's not funny, and heard how great their partner is and blah, blah....which I want to hear about. I just was feeling kinda down and there they were just trying to explain something to me, but in the end making me worse. Stuff like...."You will find somebody when the time is right. Look at how well {name} and I get along." I didn't really need that right then. I was always able to take my mind of it when my other half was here, but now I'm alone. Okay, I sound really pathetic. I'm not trying to make some "Pity Me" speech. I don't want pity or "Omigod, how sad" looks. I just wish that I could stop this feeling. I hate it when I feel like this.
Lord, please bring me through this, as You have never left my side.