What I want and what I need.
I just feel like complete shit lately. Not just because i've been sick, but because to be honest, i'm just really lonely. I miss having someone who cares about the same shit I do. I hate having to explain myself, and I miss having someone who's just like, "Naw, I get it. I get you."
I wish I was better at being with someone. I feel like I could be better at being good to someone now, I don't know if its coming with age or what.
Pity parties are the pits.
In February, me and Megan will be moving in together. We're gunna share a room in a one bedroom in Long Beach. Its a really exciting concept. We both realize that it'll be difficult to do that as two adult women, but we also recognize that our life situations are unreasonable NOW. Plus...we both work so much who know's how often we'll be home. Hopefully by then, i'll have a new job (one with benefits) and maybe a boy/girlfriend with their own place too.
I've had so many revelations regarding my life and friends this year that it really blows me away. As far as both go, i've stuck to my guns and have kept it real. I've stopped making excuses for inexcusable people, and am SSSOOOO happy with the close circle of friends in my life. Christen, Danny, Megan, Tawny, Chad, Terry, Jenny, Matty Edwall, Tony, Mike and Nohemy are pretty much the only people i talk to on a regular basis and hang out with. Its a nice combo between my gays and straights, and seriously, they all bring so much to my life. I never thought i'd be okay with a small number of friends, but its really refreshing to have a group of people in your life who accept you no matter what, and still wanna be around you.
It was a good Christmas and I can honestly say I had a lot of fun. Stttiiilll planning on returning some stuff, its just not me. And I still need to get the ring my parents got for me sized. Tomorrow i'm going out with Danny....totally necessary. I miss him like a mexican girl misses holiday tamales. On the real.
I wish I was better at being with someone. I feel like I could be better at being good to someone now, I don't know if its coming with age or what.
Pity parties are the pits.
In February, me and Megan will be moving in together. We're gunna share a room in a one bedroom in Long Beach. Its a really exciting concept. We both realize that it'll be difficult to do that as two adult women, but we also recognize that our life situations are unreasonable NOW. Plus...we both work so much who know's how often we'll be home. Hopefully by then, i'll have a new job (one with benefits) and maybe a boy/girlfriend with their own place too.
I've had so many revelations regarding my life and friends this year that it really blows me away. As far as both go, i've stuck to my guns and have kept it real. I've stopped making excuses for inexcusable people, and am SSSOOOO happy with the close circle of friends in my life. Christen, Danny, Megan, Tawny, Chad, Terry, Jenny, Matty Edwall, Tony, Mike and Nohemy are pretty much the only people i talk to on a regular basis and hang out with. Its a nice combo between my gays and straights, and seriously, they all bring so much to my life. I never thought i'd be okay with a small number of friends, but its really refreshing to have a group of people in your life who accept you no matter what, and still wanna be around you.
It was a good Christmas and I can honestly say I had a lot of fun. Stttiiilll planning on returning some stuff, its just not me. And I still need to get the ring my parents got for me sized. Tomorrow i'm going out with Danny....totally necessary. I miss him like a mexican girl misses holiday tamales. On the real.