I've got fail!

Sep 09, 2010 00:33

needless drama, check.
unhappy with (first iteration of) project, Check.
maybe found what I've always wanted and then maybe fucked it up with needless drama, check.
broke up with girlfriend, check.

Maybe I can start over a bit in a while... right now I don't have anything left.

sigh.

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Thanks all. lightfixer September 9 2010, 17:36:43 UTC
I really appreciate all the hugs and such but for now I need to let my head sort out and see how the various things settle. Maybe there is still hope and I wont be judged too much on the past few months.

I just wish I hadn't had so much happening at once.
This has definitely been the most stressful time in my life and my ability to deal with social things properly and communicate in the last two months was nil yet I tried anyway. Now I fear a few important people think I'm not together and I've pushed them away.

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Re: Thanks all. clara_girl September 9 2010, 21:09:14 UTC
good luck, good luck, GOOD LUCK. know that i think you rock, and are an awesome person, and wonderful friend. hugs if'n you want 'em, and see where you are after the dust (proverbial and otherwise) settles.

if nothing else, iscari0t is right: there is always bourbon. use it wisely. ;)

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Re: Thanks all. haptotrope September 16 2010, 12:02:44 UTC
I don't think the dust is proverbial. :-PP

Anyway, if its useful, come out to visit Clara and I and I hear there are some mountains out here worth climbing -- maybe there is guru at the top -- maybe not. But I'm new here.

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pseydtonne September 9 2010, 22:17:27 UTC
You've made it through worse, and on television. You'll make it through this. Let me know the moment you need me.

You're always worth the time. you've been good to me. You've never been a dick to me, at all.

Kibo says hi, too. He's been cooking delicious things a lot.

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Re: Thanks all. klingonlandlady September 10 2010, 01:28:38 UTC
The folks who have good judgement themselves will judge you on more than just this recent stressy period. Everyone has ups and downs, and if you didn't handle this the greatest, you've done great with other challenges in the past and are overall a smart, fun and together person. So if this winds up being a learning experience rather than a triumph, well it sounds like you're at least learning from it- the people I would not respect would be the ones who get stuck in the negativity or don't have better goals for themselves.

Executive summary: HUGS ;)

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