any one else out there like me?
I know I'm not normal, I've always known I was a little different,but lately I'can understand Some of what's going on, but lately I've been really wondering what's going on with me. And i should add that i did not grow up in a house with witchcraft. I would have people that were ghost/spirits come over to my bed every night, and stand over me when I was a child starting from the time I was 3. I would always put my blanket over myself, because they gave me a bad vibe, and I would I feel as though I was protecting myself, with an invisible shield, this went on every night until i was 16. I would make sure to have myself covered up at all times. when i was about 7 i realized if i looked into people eyes, i felt like i could Really look past their eyes, and see who they really were e.i. Good/bad, happy/lonely/angry, idk that part is really hard to explain, but i can just Feel what kind of person someone is by looking into their eyes. But i never really trusted it until recently (i am 27 now) when i noticed it, felt it and ignored it. they turned out to be a very very bad people, exactly the kind of person i felt in their eyes. I feel energy from spirits a lot, both good and bad. And still see them occasionally.
When i was 19, i was getting ready to meet up with a friend when i heard a woman's voice tell me do not go or you will perish, i was at home with no background nose besides my sleeping 4 month old daughter. I listened, and that night on the news on the route i would have taken there was a horrible several car accident, no one survived-it happened at exactly the time I would have been in that area, had I gone.
When I was 22, I had a horrible nightmare that I was riding in a car with my brother and it suddenly was going end over end and side to side. I called my dad because it was so real, he said my brother was fine. 5 months later he was in a car accident end over end, side to side- no one knows how or why he survived, but to this day I feel like I was with him, and that i helped him some how, in my dream i was in the passenger seat, and the last thing i said before i woke up was that he didn't have to worry, i was going to protect him.
In the last 2 years, I have had so much unexplainable happenings. During certain times, I feel so tired that i would lay down, and immediately be asleep, but i know i don't rest, and i know I Was somewhere else, and i don't take the form of a human... I'm in the mountains, and I'm in the form of a wolf, and I'm not alone, there are several others. I feel crazy saying it, but i know I'm not just dreaming, i wake up completely exhausted, cold, and hungry Like i have astral projected possibly? But why the form of a grey/white wolf? And it takes me a few minutes to realize where i am. I have also had this happen, where i was a lady in the 1770's in England (idk how i know this for the time line, but I'm pretty positive), walking through a dirty market street, and someone, would come up to me and say "you are more then what you think my dear" i can't even remember now whether it was a man or woman. And then i would wake up, gaping for air. this happened when i was both 16 and 18. I'm thinking possible past life?
I have noticed i have to really watch my emotions, because if i get too angry or sad, i will go to touch anything, Even a wooden dresser, and it will shock me. I also had a light brighten and dim to the pitch of my voice one night, it was the dimmer kind, but it just followed my voice.. It was weird.
And here in the last 2 weeks I've had friends come to me with problems, and i can feel and hear what I'm supposing are their guardians/angels, helping me figure out what to say to them.
I don't dream very often either, or atleast I don't think I do, it all seems Black, until i wake up.
Until recently, i would escape to the mountains (and they are not the same ones that I've come to know as a wolf), and find peace.
I need some help to understand what has been going on with me, so i can have control over it. And be able to expand to be who i am supposed to be Without the what the heck is going on. Like i said, i know I'm not normal. And i really hope i don't sound like a nut job. I don't really have that many people i can talk to about this one.. I've tried, but it all comes out with me getting frustrated, i don't have any friends who share in my beliefs. It's also only been in the last 2 years that I have found my way back to my spirituality (my ex Husband thought it was demonic)
When i was 19, i was getting ready to meet up with a friend when i heard a woman's voice tell me do not go or you will perish, i was at home with no background nose besides my sleeping 4 month old daughter. I listened, and that night on the news on the route i would have taken there was a horrible several car accident, no one survived-it happened at exactly the time I would have been in that area, had I gone.
When I was 22, I had a horrible nightmare that I was riding in a car with my brother and it suddenly was going end over end and side to side. I called my dad because it was so real, he said my brother was fine. 5 months later he was in a car accident end over end, side to side- no one knows how or why he survived, but to this day I feel like I was with him, and that i helped him some how, in my dream i was in the passenger seat, and the last thing i said before i woke up was that he didn't have to worry, i was going to protect him.
In the last 2 years, I have had so much unexplainable happenings. During certain times, I feel so tired that i would lay down, and immediately be asleep, but i know i don't rest, and i know I Was somewhere else, and i don't take the form of a human... I'm in the mountains, and I'm in the form of a wolf, and I'm not alone, there are several others. I feel crazy saying it, but i know I'm not just dreaming, i wake up completely exhausted, cold, and hungry Like i have astral projected possibly? But why the form of a grey/white wolf? And it takes me a few minutes to realize where i am. I have also had this happen, where i was a lady in the 1770's in England (idk how i know this for the time line, but I'm pretty positive), walking through a dirty market street, and someone, would come up to me and say "you are more then what you think my dear" i can't even remember now whether it was a man or woman. And then i would wake up, gaping for air. this happened when i was both 16 and 18. I'm thinking possible past life?
I have noticed i have to really watch my emotions, because if i get too angry or sad, i will go to touch anything, Even a wooden dresser, and it will shock me. I also had a light brighten and dim to the pitch of my voice one night, it was the dimmer kind, but it just followed my voice.. It was weird.
And here in the last 2 weeks I've had friends come to me with problems, and i can feel and hear what I'm supposing are their guardians/angels, helping me figure out what to say to them.
I don't dream very often either, or atleast I don't think I do, it all seems Black, until i wake up.
Until recently, i would escape to the mountains (and they are not the same ones that I've come to know as a wolf), and find peace.
I need some help to understand what has been going on with me, so i can have control over it. And be able to expand to be who i am supposed to be Without the what the heck is going on. Like i said, i know I'm not normal. And i really hope i don't sound like a nut job. I don't really have that many people i can talk to about this one.. I've tried, but it all comes out with me getting frustrated, i don't have any friends who share in my beliefs. It's also only been in the last 2 years that I have found my way back to my spirituality (my ex Husband thought it was demonic)