how do I go about this? I suck at asserting myself especially when it comes to guys..
So, there's this guy.. Who I have liked for 2 years now.. When I left my exhusband, he and I kind of had a "thing". That ended because I started developing real feelings for him, and he was at a point where he didn't think he could handle a real relationship.. He pushed away.. And for a long time it was on again/off again. Then I moved.. Dated a few jerks in the process, and For some reason, he was always in the back of my mind. He always held a special piece of my heart. And as much as i wanted to sometimes.. I just Couldn't let it go.. I Couldn't let him out of my heart.. When i moved back here, i asked a friend for his number.(i am the queen of breaking phones). We started hanging out again.. A lot. I can tell he cares deeply about me, as much as he tries to hide it, i know.. and then, last night.. I was informed he's still "madly in love" with Me.. I don't feel the whole butterflies puppy dog love struck with him.. Its like its deeper.. But how do i go about this one? Im honestly scared shitless.. I cant handle loosing him again.. And ive talked to 2 of his friends.. Who are my friends as well.. They say Tell him! But im so scared to! Im afraid of what he might say.. How he might feel about me being so open as to tell him dude, nothing would make me happier in life then to be ur girl. Or.. Good gawd, the different ways ive thought to approach this.. One even including the whole "would u want to be more then just friends check yes or no" but that sounds so childish.. The last 2 Times ive hung out with him, the words (really just a jumbled up cluster) are right there.. But i cant get them out. I want to tell him.. So Badly.. But the big question is How do i tell him hes all i want..being with him.. Even when we are just watching tv.. Idk it feels, Right. This blows!!