I support drinking milk from cows and not from a soy bean.
Is it that hard for me to talk/meet/look at people?
I'm leaving for Seattle next friday and all I really want to do is stay here.
I used to get excited thinking about moving to Seattle. Now I get more excited thinking about moving back.
Everything will be different though. I know everything will be so different and possibly never the same.
My hair might be longer. I might have a new piercing and/or tattoo.
I might like different music. I could even be selling my clothes/TV/self for extra money. Who knows. Seattle does things to people.
But maybe I will be more outgoing. Maybe I will actually let people get to know me. Maybe I'll devote the time that people deserve and get to know them. I want to know them and I know that's not what it seems like. I swear that nothing makes me happier than hearing that someone wants to talk to/know me. I swear that nothing hurts me more than knowing that because of me, I might never know that person. Because I don't talk. Because I know it seems like I don't want to listen. Because I will be the only person to ever know that THAT is the EXACT opposite of what I could ever want. Because I know that I didn't take the time or have the courage to just say hi to that person. BECAUSE I NEVER ASKED THEM IF THEY WANTED TO GET HOT NONFAT CHAI TEAS WITH ME AND TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT MATTER. And maybe possibly hopefully I could have some sort of tiny impact in their lives and they could have had a huge one in mine.
I hope things change soon.
I'm leaving for Seattle next friday and all I really want to do is stay here.
I used to get excited thinking about moving to Seattle. Now I get more excited thinking about moving back.
Everything will be different though. I know everything will be so different and possibly never the same.
My hair might be longer. I might have a new piercing and/or tattoo.
I might like different music. I could even be selling my clothes/TV/self for extra money. Who knows. Seattle does things to people.
But maybe I will be more outgoing. Maybe I will actually let people get to know me. Maybe I'll devote the time that people deserve and get to know them. I want to know them and I know that's not what it seems like. I swear that nothing makes me happier than hearing that someone wants to talk to/know me. I swear that nothing hurts me more than knowing that because of me, I might never know that person. Because I don't talk. Because I know it seems like I don't want to listen. Because I will be the only person to ever know that THAT is the EXACT opposite of what I could ever want. Because I know that I didn't take the time or have the courage to just say hi to that person. BECAUSE I NEVER ASKED THEM IF THEY WANTED TO GET HOT NONFAT CHAI TEAS WITH ME AND TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT MATTER. And maybe possibly hopefully I could have some sort of tiny impact in their lives and they could have had a huge one in mine.
I hope things change soon.