a loaded update
i'm applying for grad school. sfsu is where i wanna go as a number one choice. i have my current school as a plan b but i'm not too thrilled about said prospect for a number of reasons, especially since the program is basically crummy. anyway, i think what excites me most about grad school is the liberation of getting the EFF out of san diego. i mean really, i've lived here my whole life (minus my first four years) and moving away would be truly refreshing. this notion of new places means more to me than ever -- teigan, bcut i empathize with you on every level. i really, really, really, really, like really, really hope to find myself a grad student in sf, it's the only other school in california that makes sense for my situation. we'll see how this goes, applying is quite the lengthy process so i'll be sure to update my fellow readers!
on a side note, i fucking give up on guys. i've exhausted all of my resources and there's no reason for this anyway! and to make matters worse, i'm so sick and tired of being in this relationally charged environment! it's like everywhere i turn there's another boyfriend/girlfriend couple, an engagement or even a wedding! gahhh! i'm so damn frustrated that guys refuse to grow a pair and just ask a girl out already. i really want out of san diego. i hate how everyone knows everyone, life gets incredibly mundane this way. don't get me wrong, i truly love my friends and of course you're the only redeeming social quality about san diego. sadly i've also come to realize most people don't give a damn when it comes to friendships. nobody ever makes an effort aside from my solid handful of friends. there's a reason why acquaintances remain acquaintances or why "friends" you hardly see remain superficial.
i guess it all boils down to where my life is going. i'll be graduating in less than six months and hopefully i'll have sf to look forward to. i'm so eager and willing to start my next chapter.
okay, enough ranting for one post.
on a side note, i fucking give up on guys. i've exhausted all of my resources and there's no reason for this anyway! and to make matters worse, i'm so sick and tired of being in this relationally charged environment! it's like everywhere i turn there's another boyfriend/girlfriend couple, an engagement or even a wedding! gahhh! i'm so damn frustrated that guys refuse to grow a pair and just ask a girl out already. i really want out of san diego. i hate how everyone knows everyone, life gets incredibly mundane this way. don't get me wrong, i truly love my friends and of course you're the only redeeming social quality about san diego. sadly i've also come to realize most people don't give a damn when it comes to friendships. nobody ever makes an effort aside from my solid handful of friends. there's a reason why acquaintances remain acquaintances or why "friends" you hardly see remain superficial.
i guess it all boils down to where my life is going. i'll be graduating in less than six months and hopefully i'll have sf to look forward to. i'm so eager and willing to start my next chapter.
okay, enough ranting for one post.