ever me
all my life i have been the fat girl in the class. i'm fairly used to it by now but that does not stop me being negative about things concerning males. like prom for example. i have a very negative look about how it is going to go for me b/c of past experiences i've had w/males. my negativity is the way i deal w/things. i am a pessimist. i can't have positve outlooks on things, its just not me. i am the opitimy of depressing thoughts and negative thinking. i thought people understood that but i guess not. its just as i've always said, no one understands me. you people think you know what i talk about but unless you have been the fat girl in the class then you have no fucking clue what the hell i'm talking about and you need to shut the hell up. i have nothing against thin people and i know alot of heavy people do. i just hate it when they think they can understand when they've never experienced anything like what i've gone through. no i wasn't horribly teased, but stuff has set me apart and it always will. i'm not ashamed of being fat, i really don't give a shit what i look like anymore. but i do give a shit when people have a problem whith the way i deal w/my shit. i am negative b/c that is all i know. if you think you've got a better way for me to deal w/shit then by all means tell me cause being negative is pushing away one of my best friends...later..