Day 5
So ... Yesterday I decided to end my fast. Not because I was weak and I wanted to eat but because I realised that I am ruining my metabolism. By not eating I train my body to store fat.. so I decided just to restrict. I will do the 2468 thing, maybe without the 8 because I AM REALLY FAT and I will start visiting the gym doing some cardio there. I AM TIRED OF HATING MY BODY!!! There is still a part of me wanting to be healthy.. Worrying about food is a waste of time and one day u realise how much time you spent counting cals and u want to kill yourself. But after a while this turns into habit you cant live without. I feel terrible for not having a normal relationship with food and that is why I decided to end my fast, I would have sooner or later have binged so it is best to stop now and just eat less, this is how I lost lots of weight an year ago... I will and I can do it again ....
Today I exceeded 200, so tomorrow is my first day :)
Today I exceeded 200, so tomorrow is my first day :)