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Private hunterborn March 2 2008, 18:37:00 UTC
You have no idea how relieved I am to see this message. How do you feel?

And of course I'm up for it. Seras will still be with me though. She has orders to stay on my elbow constantly. Including in the damn bathroom, which is really extraordinarily irritating.

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Re: Private light_lost March 2 2008, 18:46:20 UTC
I noticed the network has gotten dramatic over Harry's friend. You know, by this point I was wondering if he still kept them. I really am being wicked. I ought to stop that.

I feel, tired. Worn out and missing someone very important. That's just how the City crumbles though.

I really am sorry about causing that. I wasn't sure if you would still rather stay inside. You really do look quite good though. I think the coloring makes you look alluring and mysterious.

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Private hunterborn March 2 2008, 18:54:48 UTC
I'm honestly not sure what's going on. I tend to stay out of the drama unless I know who it involves. That and I have been even less social on the network than I was when I came here.

Yeah... Is there anything I can do?

From what I understand you couldn't help it. There's no reason to apologize. And... I'm trying to get over that. Seriously. This isn't the Frontier. No one here is going to form a mob of torches and pitchforks and run me out or try to kill me. I need to get that through my head.

The only other thing is worrying about Him watching me with another face. I've been stupidly paranoid, even on the network, when people I don't know well talk to me. I mean... what's to say he can't impersonate people there as well as in person?

But... you know... I don't want fear of that bastard controlling my life...

And... I just really started rambling there... sorry.

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Re: Private light_lost March 2 2008, 19:03:34 UTC
I'm much the same. To be quite honest, I only noticed because she seems to have most of the network pulling out pitchforks. You can't check the network without seeing someone whining about her.

Not really anything anyone can do about them leaving. The pain will pass with time. He's where he's meant to be anyway.

If anyone did try to mob you I'd kick them in the face. No one hurts my Doris without getting my shoe up their butt!

I hate to say it, but he probably can. He's probably trying to revel in the idea that he's made you a scared rabbit. Predators are like that. We both know you're stronger then he is though. He can't break you no matter what.

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Private hunterborn March 2 2008, 19:49:11 UTC
Yeah... Although I'm more concerned about that Kurama guy... I guess is who it is... I don't think I've met him, but I'm pretty sure he's one of our allies. I think Walter had Pup eat someone on account of him once...

Yeah... I know.

Heh... Thanks Waverly.

Maybe. I don't know. But frankly there isn't anything worse he can do to me in my mind, so this pussy footing around is stupid.

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Re: Private light_lost March 2 2008, 20:05:49 UTC
See, that I didn't notice. I suppose it's because he doesn't have a weak woman's pity me attitude. You know, I think that time spent being Ed's bitch was actually good for me.

You know I'd do anything for you Doris. You're one of the closest friends I have. Exactly. If you keep strong then he's got nothing to win.

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Private hunterborn March 2 2008, 20:32:03 UTC
Heh.

...

Likewise, Waverly. I've... never really had friends on the Frontier like I do here. I'm going to miss it.

You know... somehow Sir Hellsing was never informed about the fact that He can change shapes, or that he impersonated D.

Needless to say... I think she's on the warpath now.

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Re: Private light_lost March 2 2008, 20:36:56 UTC
Well, then we can hope we all stay here for a long time.

Good. She can do something to kick his butt!

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Private hunterborn March 2 2008, 20:40:15 UTC
Yeah.

Seriously. That woman scares me sometimes. She's scarier than Alucard. Of course... that's... mostly because Alucard normally acts like a goofball...

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Re: Private light_lost March 2 2008, 20:42:08 UTC
I don't think I've honestly met either properly. I usually see Sir Hellsing when I'm coming to see you.

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Private hunterborn March 2 2008, 20:46:27 UTC
Mm. She just has this... presence about her.

I think... maybe I'm just baffled by her because she was the first woman I'd ever met that... was basically stronger than me...

If that makes any sense.

Ransylva... doesn't exactly have too many strong willed women.

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Re: Private light_lost March 2 2008, 20:48:20 UTC
I think I understand exactly what you mean.

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Private hunterborn March 2 2008, 21:16:29 UTC
Mm. For a long time I could barely talk to her... out of... like a... combination fear and respect... It's really weird.

I was really worried for the longest time that I was irritating her--being a burden staying with them and all... I mean... I haven't asked for help doing anything my whole life. I've been pretty much on my own since my mother died. I mean... Dad was around, but I still pretty much had to run things while he was gone. I'm not used to asking for help--and especially for people offering without ulterior motives on their own end.

But... it's different now... Since this shit with Him started happening... I haven't felt that way anymore... After the first... incident... Alucard told me they were my family while I was here... And I got the same feeling from Sir Hellsing... and I can't even express what that meant to me...

Heh, I'm really rambling now, I'm sorry. I just... haven't really talked to anyone for like... a month... or two... Heh...

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Re: Private light_lost March 2 2008, 21:55:49 UTC
Then I'm glad you're talking to me.

You know, I think it may be a good thing this happened. It's helped you to empower yourself. Now in the vamperic way, but in a self assured sort of way.

Besides, the fangs look cute. ^_^v

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Private hunterborn March 2 2008, 22:00:47 UTC
Mm.

So you know... you were the first person I did tell outside the flat... I just thought... you should know that.

Heh. Thanks. You should see what I can do with my nails. Found that one out by accident too.

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Re: Private light_lost March 2 2008, 22:14:59 UTC
That sounds kinky.

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