Snap.
I realized what is missing and what is bothering me. The drama.
Not the childish, uncaring drama of high school. The romantic, grand gesture, talking about deep things, sparks of a first kiss, first everything. I am missing that right now.
When Adam and I started dating it was sparks all day every day. There was barely a day i didn't see him. Everything happened fast like it always does. As soon as I moved in we started making this a home for the both of us. When we weren't doing that we were with friends, at the bars, concerts. Everything was new and fun.
Then it got exhausting and I appreciated having downtime with him. It was a treat after all the chaos of Quicken and a puppy and the house and friends to just sit and watch reruns together.
But now that's about all we are doing. The other things we do are done separately. Fantasy football while I am at dance class. Going to the ballet while he is at the movies. Visiting our separate families. Reunited for dinner, cleaning, and reruns.
Nothing is new. And I guess that's why it was so easy for something new to come in, distract me. I got all wrapped up in ideas and the past and getting something I wanted for a very long time. It wasn't romantic, but it was drama. It felt great.
And then it felt awful and I didn't understand why. I could't see that I was bored. I am BORED.
So I told Adam we were boring and we both fell asleep. This will result in some drama.
Not the childish, uncaring drama of high school. The romantic, grand gesture, talking about deep things, sparks of a first kiss, first everything. I am missing that right now.
When Adam and I started dating it was sparks all day every day. There was barely a day i didn't see him. Everything happened fast like it always does. As soon as I moved in we started making this a home for the both of us. When we weren't doing that we were with friends, at the bars, concerts. Everything was new and fun.
Then it got exhausting and I appreciated having downtime with him. It was a treat after all the chaos of Quicken and a puppy and the house and friends to just sit and watch reruns together.
But now that's about all we are doing. The other things we do are done separately. Fantasy football while I am at dance class. Going to the ballet while he is at the movies. Visiting our separate families. Reunited for dinner, cleaning, and reruns.
Nothing is new. And I guess that's why it was so easy for something new to come in, distract me. I got all wrapped up in ideas and the past and getting something I wanted for a very long time. It wasn't romantic, but it was drama. It felt great.
And then it felt awful and I didn't understand why. I could't see that I was bored. I am BORED.
So I told Adam we were boring and we both fell asleep. This will result in some drama.