So much to ask.
A week without Adam was no big deal. Lonely at times but Heidi kept me good company. I suppose I anticipated that after spending so long working on the house that we would be spending time together.
We finished up in the last moments before his family came over last Sunday, then he woke up early and got on a plane. Upon his returns we got dressed up and went to his work Christmas party, which was fun, I'll admit. But then we passed out, woke up, and he left to help his friend for 5 hours. Then, granted we lazed around, but I think we were both just exhausted. We pass out again, wake up and he just left me again to go watch football with his friends.
Adam is a great boyfriend but I do admit I feel a little pushed to the side. Maybe I just miss dating, where time together is purposeful and somehow productive. Maybe it just makes me a little lonelier for my friends, who I feel quite distanced from.
Either way I feel like this is my fault for on some level expecting people to read my mind. But is it so much to ask to be thought of?
Anyway, Adam has left, and I am trying to make my own fun. Otherwise I just end up cleaning the house like someone's grandma.Rachel is coming over and we'll watch a movie. That should keep me occupied. But all the while I'm hoping that 2011 will be everything I'm making it out to be.
We finished up in the last moments before his family came over last Sunday, then he woke up early and got on a plane. Upon his returns we got dressed up and went to his work Christmas party, which was fun, I'll admit. But then we passed out, woke up, and he left to help his friend for 5 hours. Then, granted we lazed around, but I think we were both just exhausted. We pass out again, wake up and he just left me again to go watch football with his friends.
Adam is a great boyfriend but I do admit I feel a little pushed to the side. Maybe I just miss dating, where time together is purposeful and somehow productive. Maybe it just makes me a little lonelier for my friends, who I feel quite distanced from.
Either way I feel like this is my fault for on some level expecting people to read my mind. But is it so much to ask to be thought of?
Anyway, Adam has left, and I am trying to make my own fun. Otherwise I just end up cleaning the house like someone's grandma.Rachel is coming over and we'll watch a movie. That should keep me occupied. But all the while I'm hoping that 2011 will be everything I'm making it out to be.