Here I Am Lord
God is so awesome!
I've given my dating relationship totally to Him.
I confess me and Cynthia have been dating for ourselves. We've gone through about 3 times saying something's wrong, agreeing to do something about it, and then doing nothing. We even eradicated kissing...but God was telling me (and I knew He was telling me) to do more. I gave a Cain sacrifice instead of an Abel sacrifice. God told me to give more than kissing away...I knew it and didn't. I was a mixture of Abel and Jonah, the bad qualities of both.
Now I know I've done wrong and am sorry. I've made it right. God told me to give my relationship, not just parts of my relationship, to Him. I didn't listen so last night He gave me a wake up call. I blatenly told the Holy Spirit, "No," and it scared the hell out of me (lol, pun intended). I surrendered it all to Him. It's His.
Me and Cynthia are making a list of things we will do physically and things we will not. I will not post this list on this journal publically or privately but I will give a copy to a friend, dingus_xiii, and to a spiritual mentor of mine. She'll give it to a friend of hers and a spiritual mentor of hers. We'll each have a copy of it for ourselves as well. 6 copies in all. A convenant between 7 parties (the last being God of course). They'll hold us accountable and we'll make sure that we stay within the guidelines. Unless we get married we will stay in those guidelines.
It feels great. God is so good!
The song is fitting isn't it? Total accident.