stuck in a twister of emotion
today Nick told me that hes into me and asked me if me and emily were monogamous, but then when we got to borders he spent the whole time holding on to my sister. Im in love with emily and i kinda like nick but emily is my girlfriend and she is the only thing alive that i have loved in a long ass time. When nick told me he was into it was kind of a shocker cause i always thought he was a homophobe. emily cried for a long time today, and todya at the mall i finally found out why emily thought i told nick that i would go out with him. i finally told lou that i wasnt and that i really loved her and i also almost purposed to her and i was serious too. Ive never loved anyone as much as i do emily. When i see her i know that im going to have a very good day and i no she is there for me whenever i need her to be. her parents dont like me that much i dont think, well i know her dad hates me but im not sure about her mom. Im so sad right now and i wish emily and kate and shae were here so i could hug them and cry. I miss Kate dearly and i hope i see her very soon. I feel bad about chris though because hes been very depressed lately and i dont know why. Otto really pissed everyone off today with his ranting and yelling, its starting to make me want to throw something at him. well thats it for tonight i love you all especially u emily. chris i hope you feel better,SHAE ill call u tomorrow, and nick i hope you have a good time in boston.