words on a napkin.
so i know i never write in this thing and honestly i dont know who reads it or if anyone cares. but i want to vent and write and vent some more.
Life is yucky. I mean it it sucks. I see so many of my close friends hurting.
They each hurt for different reasons but really it all seems to come back down to the same basic idea. These people i am talking about are urting because of lonliness. But deeper than that arnt we all sort of hurting because we are lonley, or at least we feel alone? I mean, i remember being perfectly happy with christopher while being at college and feeling utterly alone, even though i was surrounded by some really good friends.
so someone enlighten me, but not with BS. I want real answers, Why do we do it why do we as 18-20 yr olds get into relationships? Why, when we dont even know ourselves, do we 'commit' to eachother and then break it? Why do it in the first place? I mean how long have humans been alive? How come past generations (after all there have been millions) never cared to pass down this information, and if they tried then how come they didnt try hardder, or better yet why didnt we listen?
All i know is right now, i feel awful. I hate the idea of leaving (I always do), yet i know that staying here will not make me feel better bc i feel just as lonley here as i will there, the only difference will be that they speak spanish and are strangers.
Life is yucky. I mean it it sucks. I see so many of my close friends hurting.
They each hurt for different reasons but really it all seems to come back down to the same basic idea. These people i am talking about are urting because of lonliness. But deeper than that arnt we all sort of hurting because we are lonley, or at least we feel alone? I mean, i remember being perfectly happy with christopher while being at college and feeling utterly alone, even though i was surrounded by some really good friends.
so someone enlighten me, but not with BS. I want real answers, Why do we do it why do we as 18-20 yr olds get into relationships? Why, when we dont even know ourselves, do we 'commit' to eachother and then break it? Why do it in the first place? I mean how long have humans been alive? How come past generations (after all there have been millions) never cared to pass down this information, and if they tried then how come they didnt try hardder, or better yet why didnt we listen?
All i know is right now, i feel awful. I hate the idea of leaving (I always do), yet i know that staying here will not make me feel better bc i feel just as lonley here as i will there, the only difference will be that they speak spanish and are strangers.