Just another day in life....
Woah welll....as you can see this is my first official journal entry!
Actually I've had live journal for about 4 months now but....I forgot my password the day I made it soo it took me awile to figure it out but.... I DID! and here I AM!!! ..lets not all get excited at once, I mean come on now..!??!)
Anyway I'm going to blab...you ready????
ok,
This week basically was a big change for me I went to live with my dad for awhile and he's helping me loose some weight... and i know people! I'M NOT FAT! However you know when you hit that point when everyday you look in the mirrior and feel as if your not good enough...well if not.. then this only applys to me. Good thing is though, I know I will never be "perfect" but its still nice to feel comfortable with yourself ...and thats something I guess I lack??!? Well even if I dont get "IN SHAPE" at least I know im healthy ..right?? I miss Jimmy alot because I havnt seen him for awhile or talked to him...He always makes me soo happy and when I dont talk to him or see him im like this.. :(...Well whatever he's doing I hope hes doing well.. Same goes for erin she like makes me soo super happy and is the only one who I can be around where I can be myself and truly feel good about who I am. I love you too hannah your my gift.
You know...have u ever liked sumone soo much and just cant let go ....even though you know no matter what u do you'll never have them?? Well I do and sumtimes it makes me soo sad because I feel like im too ugly or chunky or annoying and I dont want to feel that way about myself but I guess when u like someone soo much you just want to be perfect for them and when you really realize your never going to be good enough it sort of makes you fell icky inside (my kindergarden term) but im not suprised if this person thinks im a little annoying because I prob do get weird in front of him..only because I get soo nervous talking to him I'm afraid to screw up...anyway...whatever my problem is I'm just going to pray God will give me the strength to get through everything and whether I can ever be with this person or not...I dont care as long as he's happy...But I defenetly dont want to sound emo in all this soo let me tell you what I really know! Jesus loves me and has that perfect plan for my life and that perfect person for me! Its hard to not feel the way I do about things I'm sure that goes for all of us but I still know that no matter what I feel, whether its alone or sad or not perfect...I know My Lord will always comfort me and to him im perfect because im his child .... and because I'm his child im strong and can get through anything if you know my God then you know your never alone either...and to me your all beautiful <3
God Bless each and everyone of YOu
HEY! I told you I'd blab ...xoxo
Lea-
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
Actually I've had live journal for about 4 months now but....I forgot my password the day I made it soo it took me awile to figure it out but.... I DID! and here I AM!!! ..lets not all get excited at once, I mean come on now..!??!)
Anyway I'm going to blab...you ready????
ok,
This week basically was a big change for me I went to live with my dad for awhile and he's helping me loose some weight... and i know people! I'M NOT FAT! However you know when you hit that point when everyday you look in the mirrior and feel as if your not good enough...well if not.. then this only applys to me. Good thing is though, I know I will never be "perfect" but its still nice to feel comfortable with yourself ...and thats something I guess I lack??!? Well even if I dont get "IN SHAPE" at least I know im healthy ..right?? I miss Jimmy alot because I havnt seen him for awhile or talked to him...He always makes me soo happy and when I dont talk to him or see him im like this.. :(...Well whatever he's doing I hope hes doing well.. Same goes for erin she like makes me soo super happy and is the only one who I can be around where I can be myself and truly feel good about who I am. I love you too hannah your my gift.
You know...have u ever liked sumone soo much and just cant let go ....even though you know no matter what u do you'll never have them?? Well I do and sumtimes it makes me soo sad because I feel like im too ugly or chunky or annoying and I dont want to feel that way about myself but I guess when u like someone soo much you just want to be perfect for them and when you really realize your never going to be good enough it sort of makes you fell icky inside (my kindergarden term) but im not suprised if this person thinks im a little annoying because I prob do get weird in front of him..only because I get soo nervous talking to him I'm afraid to screw up...anyway...whatever my problem is I'm just going to pray God will give me the strength to get through everything and whether I can ever be with this person or not...I dont care as long as he's happy...But I defenetly dont want to sound emo in all this soo let me tell you what I really know! Jesus loves me and has that perfect plan for my life and that perfect person for me! Its hard to not feel the way I do about things I'm sure that goes for all of us but I still know that no matter what I feel, whether its alone or sad or not perfect...I know My Lord will always comfort me and to him im perfect because im his child .... and because I'm his child im strong and can get through anything if you know my God then you know your never alone either...and to me your all beautiful <3
God Bless each and everyone of YOu
HEY! I told you I'd blab ...xoxo
Lea-
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11