It's Friday and i feel a little lost, its so weird staying home on Friday evenings. It used to be Gen Acts night and as im typing now, i can see them closing in prayer preparing to head home.
So i took a break and was suppose to fast and pray and i'm so not proud to say that i've failed. I managed to fast (more like diet actually) but pray? No.
My faith is probably somewhere near the negatives now.
She hasn't turn bad, shes just confuse.
All she can say now is "God, help her, she's lost and she needs you badly".
She stills believe but something has taken over her, she doesn't know what it is and she's afraid that she'll give up. She wants to be filled with the thirst, hunger and passion once again but.. she don't know.
Search Me, Know Me
Search me, know me
Try me and see
Every worthless affection
Hidden in me
All I'm asking for
Is that You'd cleanse me Lord
Create in me a heart that's clean
Conquer the power of secret shame
Come wash away the guilty stain of all my sin
Clothe me in robes of righteousness
Cover my nakedness with grace
All of my life before You now I humbly bring