OMG.. Heehee
Well i know no one reads my fucking journal.. but i dont care.. i am posting here! :D
Well.. I am so extreamly happy with Coy. I sit here and think... I never in my entire life.. thought i would be able to be with him. I thought when we ended the relationship the last time.. .that that was going to be the end of it for ever. Him moving on to some wonderful girl... while i sat here... talked to him.. and faked a smile... even though it hurt so much to see that he was with someone else... killing me cuz i couldnt have him... but now.. he is mine! and I am so entirely happy with that!
We have talked about getting married and i just can not wait!!!! I get to have the wedding i have always wanted.. and to be married to the man that i have wanted for almost 4 years now! I dont know what more i could ask for in life right now... well... to win the lottery! :D which i hope happens soon too.!!!
I can wait till after xmas when we can move into an appartment and be free from my mother... ahh the wrath of the mother :D:D:D
I still have a fear that if i keep "Irritating" and "Pissing" him off.. that he is going to leave me... he tells me that he isnt going to leave me.. but i dont know.. i can get annoying sometimes.. and he will be the first to admit that... but i dont know.. i am trying to straighten that shit out with me.. so i dont screw up and lose him again.. cuz i think i would just die if i were to loose him this time.
I am waiting till i get my insurence cards and fucking money so i can go to the doctor for my allergies.. cuz man... they are kicking my fucking ass... they drive me up the wall... i may also see him for my depression which.. sadly to say has gotten outta control again.. and for those who think it is Coy.. it isnt! He has been there for every up and down that i have had.. and he has been my helping hand when i fall and cant get up.. these past times... if it werent for him.. i dont know how i was going to make it outta it... and... i have to thank him for everything... he gives me strength and hope everyday that i live... he is all i live for now a days... I thank him for everything... past and present....
well i think i am done for now..
I love you Coy with all my heart and for all eternity..
~sky
Well.. I am so extreamly happy with Coy. I sit here and think... I never in my entire life.. thought i would be able to be with him. I thought when we ended the relationship the last time.. .that that was going to be the end of it for ever. Him moving on to some wonderful girl... while i sat here... talked to him.. and faked a smile... even though it hurt so much to see that he was with someone else... killing me cuz i couldnt have him... but now.. he is mine! and I am so entirely happy with that!
We have talked about getting married and i just can not wait!!!! I get to have the wedding i have always wanted.. and to be married to the man that i have wanted for almost 4 years now! I dont know what more i could ask for in life right now... well... to win the lottery! :D which i hope happens soon too.!!!
I can wait till after xmas when we can move into an appartment and be free from my mother... ahh the wrath of the mother :D:D:D
I still have a fear that if i keep "Irritating" and "Pissing" him off.. that he is going to leave me... he tells me that he isnt going to leave me.. but i dont know.. i can get annoying sometimes.. and he will be the first to admit that... but i dont know.. i am trying to straighten that shit out with me.. so i dont screw up and lose him again.. cuz i think i would just die if i were to loose him this time.
I am waiting till i get my insurence cards and fucking money so i can go to the doctor for my allergies.. cuz man... they are kicking my fucking ass... they drive me up the wall... i may also see him for my depression which.. sadly to say has gotten outta control again.. and for those who think it is Coy.. it isnt! He has been there for every up and down that i have had.. and he has been my helping hand when i fall and cant get up.. these past times... if it werent for him.. i dont know how i was going to make it outta it... and... i have to thank him for everything... he gives me strength and hope everyday that i live... he is all i live for now a days... I thank him for everything... past and present....
well i think i am done for now..
I love you Coy with all my heart and for all eternity..
~sky