Thursday

[lifexxgoesxxon]

I'm in a very not good mood. Don't exactly know why, well I do, but not entirely. The next few days are going to be fun, but are already turning out to be a bigger problem then I expected. Planning things is hard, and I'm getting frustrated. I'm trying not to let myself get stressed about it, becsue I know that it will all eventually fall into place, but it isn't at that point yet. School is annoying and I'm getting too much work to do,I'm trying to make sure everything is planned for friday and saturday, and there's a few other things on my mind. I'm going insane because I never get to see or talk to like anyone anymore, so most everything I feel has to be kept inside, becsue no one cares enough or has enough time to bother with how I'm feeling anymore. And even if they do, I don;t feel like explaing everything. I know most of the reason why I've been so upset lately, and it isn't something I feel like talking about with everyone, so no one even knows how unhappy or whatever I've been. But, whatever. Hopefully it will be worked out soon, so I don't have to constantly worry about the same thing. If they only knew how much they were putting me through :( But they don't, so I don't understand why I care so much. I like how I spend more time trying to help my friends then i do myself, and get no apreciation. Makes me feel wonderful. No one even notices or cares so why should I bother?

Yeah, so I think I'm pretty much done with this thing, no one reads it anyways.

Sry about the complaining, like I said, I'm not in a good mood.

Stayin the night at Rachel's tonight, Spirit day and Hc game tomorrow. Should be fun, lets hope I snap out of this by then.

Feels like it fits::
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

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